Ariana's POV
"You can't tell me it was a dream because it's not!" Justin spat. We're FaceTiming, and I'm honestly embarrassed right now.
"Okay, okay, it's not. I just, didn't want you thinking about it. And plus, it doesn't matter anyways," I said awkwardly.
"You're just gonna let this go? Like nothing happened?"
"Justin, I'm on tour. We're so on and off, I can't deal with this bullshit right now!"
"You're the one who kissed me. I never kissed you first,"
"It's complicated,"
"I have every right to know why you kissed me,"
"No, I'm not telling you,"
"Why not?"
"Because I have every right to keep it to myself,"
"No, you've been keeping too much shit from me, y-you've got me so confused and anxious,"
"Fine, you wanna know? I'll tell you,"
"Mhm,"
"Kyle is still with Michelle, I just wanted to find someone that made me comfortable and when I kissed you, it made me feel something. Every time I kiss Kyle now, I feel regret, anger, and pain. I just needed a kiss that made me feel good, okay? And plus, it's just a one night thing, let it go!"
"Why're you still with him?"
"That's my buisness,"
"Is it because he's your backup dancer and you don't want him to fuck shit up?"
I nodded.
"No, you don't fucking do that. He's hurting you, he's not treating you right, it's not good for yourself, you deserve better-"
"-it's complicated, okay? Mind your own buisness,"
"So, you're gonna let him hurt you? Alright,"
"Like you've never hurt me! You made me feel like fucking shit sometimes and it pisses me off so much, yet I still forgive you,"
"You see, you always use that excuse! Yeah, I understand I've made you upset before, but I realize that it's wrong and I try to fix things. I'd rather argue with you than lose you, but that's too late,"
It was silent for about 30 seconds.
"I-I gotta go," I said, quickly hanging up.
Justin's POV
I'm getting so impatient with her. Does she want me or not?
I realized that I was the one who ended shit bad. Not bad, terribly.
I thought I could get away with it and hope feelings would just go away. But that didn't happen. It just made me like her more than ever.
When I chose fame over her, it wasn't because I meant it. It was because I felt like she didn't have happiness because I was always busy.
All I want for her is to be happy. She's talking to me about how Kyle is still with that Michelle girl... That's not making her happy.
I want her to be happy.
Why can't she be happy?
If she was happy with Kyle, it's not like I'd feel great but at least she's happy, right? If Kyle was this amazing sweet caring guy, then I'd just let it go.
But he's a fucking asshole who cheats on a woman that deserves so much better. He doesn't know what he has.
I haven't been with Ariana for a year now. I've learned to live without her in my life.
