Temptation ||Cowan Fanfiction||

Ch.9 Do You Even Care?!

Corey's P.O.V
< A/N 4 months kater. Ps sorry for all the time jumps the story will be straightened out soon enough>

Its been 4 months. For months since I've seen my Rowan smile. For months and she's called my name since she's told me she loves me. Of course I forgave her once Peyton came to the hospital and explained what happened that night. I just wish I knew about it earlier maybe I could have saved her... I feel so, so useless. I should have never reacted the way I did. Now my Rowan has lost everything. I helped rowan get back on her feet but she still has big bipolar episodes. In fact she's in a therapy session right now she had a big blow out this morning with the voice in her head she named it Rachel - yes she named it. Just as I heard that someone walk through the door. "Miss Blanchard will see you now" the nurse said to me. Finally. Maybe if I was lucky we could get her to smile again I miss her beautiful smile. I walked in the room into a screaming Rowan. oh no, not again. I walked over to her and started rubbing her shoulders slowly. It wasn't in vain attempt to calm her down but whatever I could do I would. She started screaming quotation mark! Guy. No matter how much I tell her I love her we love her she still wants to die. I started down. And she started to lay down on the bed. She gave a weak smile. A weak one but still a smile. I felt better, instantly." sorry Corey. Rachel was just being a b**** this morning." She mumbled. (A/N This monologue thing that Rowan will be doing is the meme from the last chapter.)
"Rowan will you tell me what Rachel said?" I whispered. "OK." She mumbled and got up. "She's like a bully but worse. She never shut up. You exist and you shoudnt. You exist and your weird. Your stupid. You exist, and Nobody like you should be happy. Your ugly and worthless. You exist, Nobody like you should be happy. STOP BEING WHO YOU ARE AND DIE ALREADY." By now she was crying and twitchong. She was repeating things and for the first time in 4 months, I actually thought she was crazy. I backed up abit. "You exist" she continued. "Your dumb. No one will ever like you. You exist and you should stop being who you are. No body should be as happy as you. Idiot. Slut. Jerk. YOU EXIST, YOU EXIST AND WEIRD! STOP BEING WEIRD AND STOP BEING HAPPY! YOU DON'T DESERVE TO BE HAPPY!." She started screaming and shaking loke crazy. I ran over and hugged her tightly. She physically relaxed. "Stop being who you are, or I'm gonna make you go to bed one day...and never wake up." She finished doubled over in sobs. "I hate her. She's the reason I'm crazy!" She choked out. I rubbed her back. My poor angel.
<Last one I promise- 1 year later.>
Rowan gets out of rehab today. She's much better she says 'Rachel' has been gone for a while and she seems ok. I went into her room and she looked stunning. She had curled her hair and put on the dress she took of after our first date. My heart skipped a beat as I remember how it felt to kiss her. By now it was getting chilly outside and I got an idea. I grabbed her hand and quickly ran out the hospital. Just as I suspected it was lightly snowing. I gave Rowan my jacket and we looked at each other like children. She smiled "Ready? Set." She started. I screamed "GO!" As I took of down the hill and jump into a fresh pile of snow. Just enough to break my fall. Rowan laughed and yelled "cheater" as she tickled me. I smiled. This is more like, it. "Hey rowan?" I asked still laughing. She moved over and smiled at me. "Yah, babe?" She asked out of breath. I chuckled, she's so cute. "Wanna go on a due over first date?" I asked and stood up. I bent to help her up and she leaped on my back instead. "I missed this" she laughed and patted my head like a child. "So is that a yes?" I asked walking to my car. I put her in the front seat and jump in the driver's seat. The car heat hit us and Rowan mumbled. "Mmmm" she smiled and turned her head to me. I smiled back. "Of course corey. Only this time, don't tell Peyton!" She laughed and leaned back, looking the happiest she's ever been. I chuckled and pulled out of the parking lot. "Glowing in the Dark" was playing on radio and Rowan swayed to the beat and sang very off key but it still sounded like an angel to me. "As long as YOU promise not to sing" I teased. She pouted and stuck her tongue out at me. I took advantage and kissed her. She gasped and I chuckled. She leaned back with pink cheeks, and sang louder. That's my angel!