Re Vel Mente Ξ Yoonmin

Chapter 14 - Next Victim

Jimin woke up after he finally made himself sleep. He picked up his phone that were laying in his bed next to him. The light was hurting his tired eyes as he scrolled around on the internet.
"It's so late.." He mumbled to himself as he finally noticed the time; He had slept all day as it was currently 9:45PM.
With a sigh he attempted to get up, but a shock of pain travelled through his body as he sat up. He groaned in pain, placing a hand at the bottom of his spine. It was so painful.. But what wasn't painful for him anymore? He couldn't help but think that to himself, as he pulled himself through the pain to get to the bathroom.

Maybe he just deserved it, maybe it was just meant for him to suffer this much. Maybe.. Maybe his mom was right?
The thoughts travelled wildly in the back of his head as he looked in the medicine-cabinet for some painkillers to dull the pain.
After taking the pills and all the other medicine he was supposed to take, he looked into the bathroom mirror. He.. He looked awful. His right cheek was swollen with wounds on it, as well as the left cheek which had the old scar from the fight, yet not as swollen as the other anymore.
There were big dark circles under his eyes together with reddened eyes from all the crying he had been doing.
With light touches, he trailed his fingers over his cheek and down to his lip. Even his lip had been split and left behind some dried blood on his chin. It was a long time ago, since he had looked this bad.

Flashbacks from when his father hit him was hard to keep at bay, as his eyes studied the bruised face.
With a sigh he started to undress himself, taking the clothes he had been wearing and threw them out. It made him sick to just look at it, due to yesterday. It was all so terrifying.. He never wanted to see that outfit again.
"Damn you're a mess Jiji!" Dooly suddenly said, laughing. That person wasn't what Jimin needed right now, but he couldn't just make him leave like he wanted him to.
-"Why don't you just listen to your mother and go kill yourself? Cut your wrists or jump off a bridge. It'd be better~ You don't deserve anything other than death and you know that yourself as well. Or maybe.. Maybe you should live on! Now that I think about it, living through this pain is better, you don't even deserve to die anymore" Dooly continued to bug Jimin with hurtful words, bugging his brain and hurting his feelings to a bigger extend.

"You are depressed right? So why not Jijiii? And you didn't kill yesterday as I told you to, so this should your punishment"

"Wasn't me being raped punishment enough?" Jimin responded on the verge of tears. Dooly just denied that, claiming it was his own fault for that to happen.
With all things going against him he couldn't help but just believe that. Maybe it was his own fault? Maybe it was also his own fault that he was beat as a kid, hated and when he got disgusted looks.
He really began thinking everything, every little incident he had been through was his fault, that maybe he was just that pathetic scum that Dooly always called him. Maybe that cruel person was right..

As he went into the shower and turned on the cold water, he couldn't stop himself from crying once again. He placed himself at the shower's floor, and let the cold water pour down on him. It took him quite a while before he even got himself to wash himself, he felt so disgusted. His body was disgusting and so was himself, every little peace of his personality.
It even ended up with him scrubbing his body for an whole hour, as he desperately tried to wash off the disgusted feelings, the uncomfortable ones.
He didn't care about getting sick from the cold water as he probably would anyway due to yesterday. Not that, that thought hit him right at that time.. He just couldn't think of anything other than how dirty he felt.

The hurt boy finally stepped out of the shower, and started to dry himself. But his movements froze as the towel reached his hair. Standing there without moving a muscle, he just looked down on the ground.
"You're really starting to think I'm right huh? Finally you have some sense you damn idiot. You should listen to me more though, and just make yourself your next victim Jijii"
Jimin slowly lifted his head to face someone who had the biggest grin on their face.
"Your laugh pisses me off"
-"Then kill yourself and you'll be free from it~"
Jimin sighed and hit Dooly with the towel.
-"Just hurt yourself already, we both know you want too~" Dooly continued and stepped aside, trying to make his own wish come true as he kept on hitting Jimin with cruel words.

"You deserve it, from killing people, from thinking you even deserve the love of another. You're nothing Jiji, no--"
"SHUT UP!" Jimin suddenly yelled, cracking his own voice as he threw a punch to the wall. He froze, trying to maintain the anger that had been developed from his despair.
-"Now didn't that feel good? Throw some more punches and get it aaall out" Dooly suggested as if he almost wanted the help him, but it was all a game to him.
But Jimin fell for it and started to punch the wall over and over again, until that one spot got painted red from the blood that his hand spilled. The pain pounded in his hand and he finally pulled back. He was out of breathe, but somehow he felt relieved.

Later on the night, maybe half an hour after the shower, he started to feel really ill. He had already gone to bed again as he didn't feel like doing anything at all. Tomorrow was Friday, tomorrow was meant to be the date.. Seeing the lovely Yoongi. But he was just too sick now.
Jimin cursed at himself over the situation, as he took his phone and wrote to Yoongi.
Even though he didn't want to, he had to cancel the plans.

"I'm sorry Yoongi, but I have to cancel the plans for tomorrow, even though I hate to do that.. I'm really sick"

And it was easy to see Yoongi didn't want it to be cancelled either, yet he was still understanding. "Well shit.. I was really looking forward to tomorrow, but I don't want to go on a date with a sick Slippery Fish"

Jimin grinned a bit before letting out a sigh and closed his eyes, but his rest was quickly interrupted again as Yoongi messaged once again, asking for his address. Without thinking Jimin just gave it to him and closed his eyes again to fall asleep. Even before the other reached to reply.
After about an hour, the time hit 1:25AM and Jimin was awoken by someone ringing the doorbell and knocking impatiently at the door.
He was totally dumbfounded by sudden event, and really thought it was his schizophrenia playing another trick on him. He wouldn't be surprised if it happened, but he got up either way to check. He fought against his own aching body to get to the door and as he opened it his eyes were met by the most loving face, that was filled with worry; the one and only Yoongi.

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I'm so cruel for putting a gif of a crying Jimin-- But don't worry it's actually happy tears in the gif! ;;
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