IN TOO DEEP [SEQUEL]

Twenty-Four

(Published 01/10/2016)

Natasha

Three days. That's how many days before I come face to face with the devil. That's how long Amir's fate lies in her hands. Three days. Three long and miserable fucking days. Seventy-two hours.

What am I going to do? I can't involve the police because I know that Leslie will kill my baby. No matter what I do to get away from my past, it tracks me down and drags me back in.

Whether it's a dream, a picture or reality; it pulls me back. Everytime. My entire life has been a dark cloud. I found peace in my son. My sun. He's my everything and now it's a possibility that he's hurt. He's somewhere scared and he needs me but I'm not there.

"You ok?" I felt August hands rest on my hips.

I looked at Sky as the breathing machine kept her alive. She looked so at peace, so relaxed. I held her hand as a single tear escaped from my eye.

"Everybody that I love is being taken away from me."

"They gon' make it. Cash gon' come outta surgery and he gon' pull through. Amir...." He paused and I heard him get choked up. "We gon' get him back. That's my word."

I nodded but I knew even he didn't believe the words he spoke.

Seeing August so helpless and vulnerable made all of this even harder for me.

I needed my heart back cold. I needed my morals to disappear and I needed to be ruthless. That's the only way I'm going to bring Amir home.

August is in the way. Around him, I'm open. I have feelings. He brings out the best in me and I don't want to be better so I know what I have to do. It's the only way I'll get back our son.

I turned to face him the kissed him with more passion than I ever had before. "I love you."

We locked eyes and neither one of us shied away.

"I love you too ma'. Forever."

I kissed him again, closing my eyes and wishing we were in a perfect world. A perfect place, on the beach watching the sun rise as the sand soaked in between our toes. A place where we could be free and never have to look over our shoulder again.

It's a wish that may never happen for us and I can't help but feel like Amir and August deserve better than me. I caused alot of havoc in everyone's life around me and now I get to sit back and watch everyone suffer.

Everyone I love.

I broke our kiss then looked at August one last time. "I have to use the bathroom."

I turned to leave but he grabbed my hand. "You sure you ok?"

"I'm fine. I'll be right back."

He didn't let my hand go right away but when he did it felt like my world had ended. He didn't know but this was goodbye. I had to do this alone and it was possible that we may not ever see eachother again.

I held it together until I stepped out of the hospital room then I gasped for air. The breath had literally been knocked out of me but I knew I had to pull it together. I had to forget about August. Forget about Sky and Cash.

It was time for me to be me.

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Leslie

"What happened in here!?" Peaches looked at Rome's body as it laid in the middle of them hotels bathroom.

"He's an asshole." I sat on the toilet puffing on my cigarette.