A Titan Of A Heart || Heichou X Reader

Avoiding Truths Remember The Past

You had locked yourself in your room for several hours, furiously drawing them together in your notebook. Levi tried again and again to talk to you, but all you did was ignore him.

"(Y/N)? It's Eren, Armin, and Mikasa let us in." You heard Armin softly knock. You glared at the door as if the beef you had was with it.

"Is Levi out there?" You called through the door, pressing your bare feet to the ground and closing your eyes.

"No." Mikasa answered, telling the truth so you got up and let the trio in, closing the door and locking it again. You trudged back over to your bed and ransomed back in the dent you made in the mattress.

"We brought you food..."

"I'm not hungry."

"..." The three sat and looked at each other in worry. "(Y/N) I'm sorry..."

"Sorry for me? Are you pitying me?! You three weren't even supposed to know, but yet here you are! Twenty laps at dawn tomorrow, or I'll wring your necks." You growled at them, even Mikasa was taken aback.

"Get out." You point to the door and they stand up to leave, but when they open the door, Levi is standing there with the second most scariest look you've ever seen.

He glanced at the trio and shivers went down their spines as they rushed past him.

His focus was on you now, and you couldn't care less. You weren't going to talk to him anyway. "(Y/N) are happy now? That everyone knows I slept with Secilia? It was an accident-"

You shot up and slammed him against the wall. "THAT was not an accident! You did it willingly, and you have the nerve to come here and ask for my forgiveness! Secilia is the assassin, and she just got intimate with you, so you've made her job easier, good job Levi!"

He stared at you for what seemed like forever. "No... No she can't be..."

"Oh so now you don't-- oh wow Levi, you just-- Wow!" You were having a mental breakdown and there was no stopping it. "Fuck you Levi! Go to hell!" You walked away from him onto the roof.

~

You forgot your drawing book in your room. 'He's probably running his dirty little hands all over it.' You scowl to yourself.

A soft breeze blew through your hair, and you heard laughter, but you didn't see anyone up there with you. It was close yet... Distant.
"He sure is a stubborn one ain't he?"

Suddenly you realized who it was. Tears fell down your face. "Isabel..." You whispered her name. Another breeze flew through the air. "Farlan..." You called out his name, the tears rushing out of your eyes.

Yeah you grew up with Cilia and Levi, but during a 4 year gap, you and Levi were thrown in the underground city, where you messed with the military police and stole supplies. It's also where you met Isabel and Farlan.

You four sat in this exact spot and argued with Levi on how he needed to trust you enough to let you go on the mission. Little did you know that the fog would be too thick on that day... Only you and Levi survived.

You had blamed Erwin for their deaths for a long time, not wanting to speak to him or do his orders. Now that Secilia was back, you didn't think about them as much, but it pained you when you did.

A flock of birds flew overhead and a white feather drifted down and landed next to you, and the damn couldn't hold back anymore water. You cried for your friends, wishing anything they could come back.

You forgot about what Levi and Cilia did, you forgot about your feelings, you forgot about everyone except Isabel and Farlan.

~

Time passed and you had cried out all the tears you had made, and sat in silence, looking at the dawning moon. "(Y/N)." Levi called your name.

You didn't respond. You didn't want to. You were still angry at him. He found you, sitting on the stones and out of the corner of your eye you saw him do a double take.

"So you still think about them too huh?" You finally spoke to him. He walked over and sat two blocks away from you, sitting the way he did that night.

"(Y/N)... I know what I did was wrong but... She said you didn't care." He hung his head and you couldn't help but laugh.

"I told you she's the assassin. You know that she likes you, probably only to make me jealous, and you know me, better than anyone else in the world." You shook your head. "This isn't like you... To apologize like that." You sighed, staring at the almost-full moon.

"I guess it's this spot. It changed me." He said looking at the moon as well. "Look, the truth is-"

"Can we just sit in silence? I don't feel like talking." You cut him off and twirl the feather in your fingers.

"Sure."