Impossible

Jason Rinn.

That name ALWAYS gave me chills.

Ever since I moved here in 2nd grade, I've had my eyes on this one boy.

He had light brown hair, and these beautiful blue eyes that I could just stare in forever. He was slightly taller than me all the years I've been here, but that's a good thing.

Oh my names, Mica.

Mica Teaks.

I'm 15, I'm going to be a sophomore, and I have bleached blonde hair and like blue/green eyes with a yellow ring.

My eyes are fucked up I know.

Anyways,

I go to Withers High, and I live in Prairie heights, Indiana (#1 basketball state what what!) Which is a state in America for all you British people reading my... Mind.

Lol that's awkward sounding.

Oh yeah, remember how I was talking about Jason Rinn?

Yeah he's my neighbor.

No, this isn't gonna be a Taylor swift "you belong with me" music video.t

Nope.

Because my secret crush I've had on him for 8 years now, is impossible.

You see, Jason is amazing.

Not because I like him, but he really is.

First of all, he's man candy. Like most girls think he's cute, but wouldn't go for him.

Not me, I'd jump right on that.

(;

Hehe but he's attractive, he's smart (like me since we're in the honors classes for those smart kids), and to put it into simple words, he's a complete baller.

Jason has been playing basketball since I moved here, and in 4th grade we were even on the same team!

That was a good year for me.

He has always been absolutely amazing, and he's the reason I got on the varsity basketball team as a freshman last year.

You see, I had this whole idea going on in about 6th grade that if I was amazing at basketball, he'd notice me and think

"Wow she plays basketball good? Instant girlfriend!"

But obviously that didn't work.

I'm in 10th fucking grade and still obsessing over him.

Sigh.

But I played basketball everyday, went to clinics, worked out every single day, and even went to a basketball camp in Florida for the entire summer before 8th grade year that made me pretty damn good!

I was amazing on the 8th grade team, scoring at least 38 points a game, but he STILL didn't notice me!

At least not in the way I wanted.

He would come to my games, and clap and say

"GO MICA!"

But he only thought of me as a basketball player.

Nothing more.

I went to formal alone, and he asked the worst basketball player on the team, and the sluttiest girl in our grade to dance while I danced with some obsessed little seventh grader.

One direction really spoke to me that night.

"I Wish"

Was practically all I listened to.

That's when I became a directioner too!

That was a mistake and good idea but I'm obsessed with them now.

Anyways lol,

Even at the end of the 8th grade year, I said

"I'll miss you, maybe we can hang out this summer!"

He just looked at me weird and said,

"I'm already playing basketball with Jessica and Jamie. Sorry."

And left me standing there, embarrassed and heartbroken.

You see,

Jessica and Jamie are two stuck up, popular, slutty, best friends . at our school.

They ALWAYS get the guys that I like, and to make It worse, Jessica and Jason dated ALL freshman year and broke up before summer.

Since Jason doesn't have a full court in his driveway like I do,

They came over nearly everyday and played.

All freshman year.

-_________-

Yeah.

Not a good year.

AT ALL.

But since they were in my driveway, I went to the gym everyday to work out, and I got even BETTER at basketball.

But seriously.

That post- freshman summer I got the hint.

He didn't like me.

And never will!

I said no to dating all these boys in my past years because I didn't want to lose chances with Jason.

I worked out and lost my fragile skinny body, to a kick ass muscular lean body that seems nice, but is a pain when I try to dress up.

I lost my fashion sense and spent all my money on basketball shoes and clothes, and athletic clothes is all I wore anymore.

I sacrificed so much for him to even just like me.

But now I know.

Him liking me?

Impossible.

Him dating me?

Impossible.

THE Jason Rinn EVER loving me and calling me his.

Completely, and totally,

Impossible.