Unforgettable love

Chapter 11

4 days later-

It had been 5 days that I had been living with the boys and I really did get to know them better than I thought I would! Abby had been staying to in her room, well it was known as 'Abby's room as she would always sleep there and practically made it her 2 Nd room. The boys were different from what i had imagined in my head but it was better.

Daniel was surprisingly the cleanest out of all but he was very... open minded! For example, there was a dead bee on the pathway in the backyard yesterday.  Your probably think 'yeah and what? However he made a little coffin out of a yoghurt pot and buried it under the soil. It was a really nice thing to do in my opinion. Daniel and myself had little moments that made me happy and feel loved. He was the only one who would watch French romance films and cry and the foreign scenes.

James was the funniest, we would go on jogs together and tell me rubbish jokes that were funny for being so awful. He made me feel happy when I was down and most importantly made Abby feel so welcome! James become my best friend and I loved his company by my side. Sometimes if we were bothered we would go buy chipotle or frozen yoghurt. There's just something about yoghurt in this house! He helped me with the laundry and tried to clean every now and then even if he was busy!

Beau, beau is wild! Beau is part of an Amazon tribe at 3 am and is a bird at 4. He helps me with the shopping and takes care of everyone. I love Beau as I loves James and Daniel but he is rather rather messy. Not even' clothes on the floor' messy. Beau is 'robes as shower curtains' messy. Although beaus messiness makes him he is. Our late night chats are cute and he loved it when we would watch films at 5 am and not get any sleep, waking up with black eyes.

Luke has changed! Luke is amazing I love him! My heart feels for Luke but.. I CANT CHOSE! I love Jai and Luke. My instincts tell me to go for Jai but my mind says differently. What is wrong with me? Luke and me have changed in general. We have amazing walks and bike rides and ice-cream. We cuddle but Luke hates every second I treasure with Jai as does the other twin. I haven't told Luke I have feelings for him because I have feelings for Jai. Luke is perfect in his own unique ways and he's everything I want. I think? He is the reason Love is so perfect. I cant deal with anything without the boy. When the month is over I truly don't know how I'll cope. Why did i even agree to this?

JAI! I can't explain the love I have for Jai. There's not a moment he's not running through my mind! I love him and he has told me the same. How can I believe it though? I feel the love I have for him overpowering my thoughts, my mind, ME! I've told Abby my feelings for Jai and she's told me that I'm a fan of his is natural but its not. Abby doesn't know that I won't be able to make it through a day without Jai. I wont be able to make it through the night without knowing his presence is not here with me. The boys know i hang with Jai the most but I'm with Luke too! Jai is just not afraid to show the love. I want to spend the rest of my life with him because Jai is the love of my life.  do love Luke but I feel now that him and Katrina are no longer a thing I'm his backup. However Jai is more than I can even explain.He tucks me in at night and makes sure there's not too much draft in my room. He makes sure the windows and doors are locked. Jai comes into my room to make sure I'm covered with my blanket and that my toes don't stick when he covers my neck. Jai is my cherry on top. He has made me love myself more than ever as much as he claims to love me!

I reached over to the desk to get my phone, 8:18 am. I hadn't woken up this in over a week. I went to go freshen up and decided to bring my phone with me to play some music during my morning routine. I was wearing nothing but a vest and underwear. I went into the shower and ran my fingers through my hair, thinking about life Jai, Luke EVERYTHING! I reached out for my towel but I couldn't get a hold of it. I peeped my head through covering my body with the shower curtain. NO! I must of left it on my bed. I stepped out of the shower draining my hair, slowly tip toeing over to my bed. Trying, hard to not waken anyone as I was butt naked. I reached for my towel as Jai walked in ...

'OH MY GOD!'

'JAI STOP LOOKING!' I screamed.

'I'M NOT!'

He put his hands over his eyes, slowly moving his fingers so he could see.

'Jai I have got eyes!'

' sorry but your so god damn beautiful, don't put your clothes back on!' 

I felt butterflies approach inside my stomach as I ran to the bathroom.My outfit slowly slipping from in my arms as I struggled to lock the door. Today I was wearing a mint skirt with a cotton white top and grey cardigan. Slowly walking into my bedroom watching Jai take Selfies on my camera. I grabbed my gold chain as I walked closer he got up clipping my necklace together. 

'Thank you' I said

' Its okay baby can you take your clothes of now!'

He called me baby. Is this normal. I don't know what it feels like to be loved but I was in love.

'Later' I winked.

What do I mean 'later'. What did I just sign up to? He slowly turned around smirking at my comment  as he ran pinning me down to the bed, kissing my neck soon my lips we over lapped by his. Jai's hands moved alone my body , soon underneath my top and reaching for my chest. He bit his lip and slowly moved his body to the shape of mine. I let out a small moan. As I put my hands on Jai's chest. Luke walked in...

His eyes widened and eyebrows raised

' What the fuck!'

I pushed Jai of off me and pulled my top down and skirt up, lifting my body Jai tried helping me back up but I denied his request. Jai looked at me and mouthed

'its fine'

However Luke was stood at the door still shocked. We weren't having sex it was just a little reminder to show our love for each other. I walked over to Luke placing my hands on his chest,

' Don't touch me !'

' I'm really sorry Luke!'

'Why Jai though *YN*?' he spoke,

I looked down and realised that I had made this vibe and anger towards them. They hated each others because of me .

' Oh shut up Luke, give her a break!' 

'IS YOUR NAME *YN*' Luke shouted.

Family comes before anything and i had broke that. I'm an evil person. A tear trickled down my face and i quickly wiped it away before it could could be seen. Luke walked out of the room and turned my head to Jai and said sorry.

'for what?' he said

' for doing this !' 

' you haven't done anything don't ever bring yourself down!' 

'There always going to be this awkward hateful feeling because of me!' 

I started to cry. I didn't want to be in this position and I didn't want to show Jai that I was upset because he would try and calm me down but I couldn't! Why can't I control the love I have building up inside me. I was so happy and didn't appreciate the boys and that I could have someone to love. I couldn't even make my mind up on who my heart and mind desired only hurting yet another person!

'NO THERE'S NOT LUKE DOESN'T LOVE YOU THE WAY I DO! Jai screamed

i knew he was right Luke didn't love me . Luke eased his pain by trying to tell himself he didn't need Katrina and that he could move on. 

' look at me ' Jai spoke

i turned to look at him as he screamed,

' I'M IN LOVE WITH YOU *YN*'

I hope you know that and I will always love you until the day I die with you in my mind. I trust you with my life and I want to grow old and have a future with you. No matter happens today know that I love you and I will do whatever it takes to spend the rest of eternity with you.

If I didn't tell Jai what had happened between Luke and myself I don't think I would be able to live with myself. I turned around and whispered,

'Jai..'