Unforgettable love

Chapter 16

*YN* POV:
6:46pm- Jai and myself were currently tidying the house, we had a huge party last night and the boys were all sleeping! I hate knowing that after 2 weeks this will all be over. I've got to know all the boys so well and within a day they will be gone and it's going to be exactly how it was 3 weeks ago.
'Are you okay?' Jai spoke
I looked at him, he was still in his boxers and wearing a plain black top with a sports head band! Weird, I know. I love the boy so much, I want him forever.
'Yes!Are you? ' I replied
'Yep' he said popping the p.
As I picked the plastic red cups, jai began to sing. His voice gave me shivers down my spine; the gentle tone makes me feel so safe!
' can I tell you something?' He asked
' yes you may Mr Brooks!'
He walked over to the sofa; indicating for me to do so too.
' I love you!' He started
I sucked my lips and began biting my bottom lip, is this a good thing or bad?
I have this thing were, when I get worried I scratch my knees to the point my fingers begin to ache. Jai slammed his hand on top of mine and told me to stop because I was making him nervous.
' last night...' He began
Staring into his eyes, I already knew what was coming next.
' please know that I would do nothing to hurt you!' He stated
Fuck, no,please no! I didn't even see him last night once; no please, don't say it. His eyes began to fill with the salty substance and a tear trickled down his face. No!
' Jai please don't say it.'
' I haven't even spoke yet!' He said
' BUT I ALREADY KNOW!'
This boy screamed and let all his anger out on me 24 hours ago for something I didn't even know was going on. I can not deal with this. This is a joke!
' please listen!' He said stumbling on his words
' NO, I HATE YOU!'  I screamed
I hope I really don't feel what I've just said, I don't know how I feel!
' YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW YET!' He screamed back
' LET ME GUESS, HMM YOU WERE DRUNK AND A GIRL YOU DIDN'T KNOW CAME ON YOU AND YOU DIDN'T REALISE ANYTHING AND THEN YOU SLEPT WITH HER MAYBE BECAUSE I DON'T CARE GO FUCK HER NOW!'
Tears screamed out of our eyes as the boys walked in.
' STOP SCREAMING!' Luke shouted
' Jai don't scream at her!' Beau added
I fell on to my knees, I really was hoping he would Deny what I had just made a comment on but no. This was real! This is why I don't fall in love. People try to commit suicide because their life's a mess but fall in love and it's the end. It will scar you for the rest of your life not just for a second and then your in heaven. No your dead for eternity.
' why are you not wearing trousers' luke said.
James walked over to Jai and began to rub his back. He doesn't deserve a rub on the back.
' What happened guys?' Daniel spoke
' nothing absolutely nothing!' I said as tears poured out of my eyes and my face beginning to boil with anger.
'Well it's clear-' daniel said, cut of with luke telling him to shut his gob
Luke strolled to my direction as he picked me up and walked me over to his room. I lay on his shoulder as guided me inside. Trying to catch my breathe I was sat on the bed.
' calm down, come on breathe in!' Luke said tucking my hair behind my ears.
My breathe hitched, eyes puffed and lips still shacking off shock. I inhaled. Closing my eyes I felt Luke's hands on my thigh's. Nope! I placed my hands under his arms lifting my self and wrapping his arms around my body. We hugged for a solid 3 minutes. I needed it. 
' What happened *YN*!'
' Jai cheated on me!' I spoke as my stomach jumped at the realisation.
' WHAT?!' He screamed
' No there must be some sort of misunderstanding he's not capable of that! ' he added
' you ask him.'
Luke left the room as Jai entered.
' get out!' I quickly commented
' please, just listen to me!'
' Jai please I'm telling you get the fuck out!'
' *YN* I'm not getting out,listen to me! '
' WHAT! What could you possibly say that would make up for your act! Don't you understand you've done wrong. I can't believe I'm saying this but I regret ever meeting you why did you have to be this! You were my inspiration look at what you've done. Not everyday do you say you've met the love of your life but I have and look at  how that's turned out for me so I'm telling you now jai get out!'
' BUT IM SAYING NO!' He began to shout trying to come closer as doing so, making sure the guys didn't hear.
I stomped over to him and began to punch his chest.
' hit me because I deserve it!'
Ugh the dick likes it when I hit him. Freak!
' stop it Jai, why just tell me why and who!'
The boy sat me on his lap and wrapped his arms around me. Ha no! I picked myself up and stood up. Soon Jai did so too.
' I didn't realise, I though it was you I couldn't see my vision was blurred and I couldn't find you but the girl was in your room. She was moving the way you do, touching your things so delicately as if it meant as much to her  as it did to you. She had similar clothes as you, almost identical a-and she did that thing to her hair that you do. I didn't realise it was exactly you in my eyes and when I got in bed with her, the girl moved around like she knew me it was creepy as if you were duplicated. When it was all over she walked over to your bathroom-'
' okay jai I don't want to know what happened I just want to know who!'
' I don't know, when I asked you this morning about last night you said you didn't see me so I knew it was you! Plus the girl, it was this weird vibe!'
Tears dripped of off my chin.
' please don't cry!' Jai said wiping the last of tears away.
' please don't touch me!' I said
' I can't do anything I know but you have to know I didn't mean this *YN*'
Fuck life, fuck this, fuck it. I smacked my lips onto his. His head jumped as did mine. Shocking I know but he's so sincere and look at him! I pulled his arm moving ourselves to my room. Why is Jai so strange, he tells me to hit him because I 'turn him on'
I tried to distract myself with unnecessary thoughts which did help but I needed to take it in action.
' hit me.' I said
' what no!'
' you always tell me to hit you so hit me!'
' yeah well I wont turn you on when I hit you!'
I stepped forward and threw my hand on to his cheek.
' I won't ask you again, I said hit me!'
' you're so crazy, one moment you're crying the next you're horny as fuck!'
' I'm unique'
Jai took it in his hands to lock the door. As always, not really a surprise.
' I'm not going to hit you hard, so don't complain.' He said
' what that's not fair. Leave your marks on me!'
' No, are you stupid!?'' He questioned
' yeah I am hit me hard please!'
He walked to the area I was in distant enough so I could touch him. His hands raised to my heads as he collected my hair and began to tie the bundle together. Ugh, he always does this. My hair gets in his way and I look 'cuter' with my hair up during sex. I never said anything about it. Just sexual abuse, in a good way. Like I had a choice in it and it's intentional I could stop it if I wanted to! No offence taken during the act.
' hurry up!' I said
' This is the routine!'
' who says we're having sex?'
' who says I think we're having sex?'
' what? Your getting ready to abuse me?' I spoke
' Okay I won't touch you then!'
' I'm joking, please hurry up! '
He began to push me vigorously against the bare wall. Woah! I thought he was staying gentle! I like it though. It's... Sexy. In a very peculiar way!
My head hit the wall but I didn't react as I knew he would stop. He's hands tightened onto my arms as he began to grip hard he forcefully placed his lips on mine.
' I hate you!' He quickly added
Okay.
His teeth gripped my bottom lip as he pressed harder and harder. Gosh. His right hand escaped my arm and reached for under my leg. This is not even good. I'm not enjoying this, he's not doing properly!
' JAI! Stop can you actually do like how I do it to you!'
' I'm afraid your going to have to demonstrate child!'
I broke free from his grasp as I pushed him on to the bed. A smile grew on his face. That would soon vanish! I pushed him against the head board as I brought out some colourful scarfs out of my drawer and tied his arms to the poles.
' crazy girlfriend or what?' I said smirking.
' nah this is sexy!'
Finishing off the last knot i ripped his boxers of his legs. I opened my mouth as my teeth gripped on his dick.
'Fuck!' He spoke
' shut up' I angrily spoke
He lifted his Waist chocking me as I began to cough. I found his legs as I pushed him back down.
' what the fuck do you think you're  doing!' I said sharply.
' did i do it right then?'
Untying the knots on his wrist I pulled his top of off his body. My fingertips slowly and gently touched his back. His lips on my neck. The boy softly swirled his tongue on my skin. Pulling my shorts off his finger slowly began to enter me. Fuck, fuck, fuck! He looked at me making sure I was okay. It's funny because he wants to play it hard but wouldn't want to hurt. The boy had hurt me more emotionally than physically. My fingers bent as my nails began to scratch the surface of his skin. Jai's breathe sharpened.
' IT HASN'T BEEN A HOUR AN YOU GUYS ARE ALREADY FUCKING ONE ANOTHER' someone shouted outside my door.
Jais eyes looked up at me as we began to laugh. His hand slammed across my face. Harder than I thought he could even achieve. My cheek began to burn. Fuck. He repeatedly began to do so. He turns we on even though I couldn't feel my face it was a burning sensation. I squeezed his dick in between my fingers as I kicked him away from me. His hands fixed back on to my arms as he fiercely spoke once more,
' Don't hit me!'
' or what?'
' or I'll hit you harder!'
' I guess I have to hit you a lot more then' I said
He stepped out of the bed and walked to the cabinet at the corner of my bedroom. He reached for the beige coloured blanket. When he came back he wrapped we securely inside. But I opened the wrap back up so he could get inside. We lay face to face on my bed.
' I don't forgive you Jai'
His eyebrows furrowed and his eyes began to fill with tears.
' stop fucking crying pussy!' I said
' you guys can staple your ass cheeks together but you can't handle love!'
Jai's eyes fixed onto mine.
' love hurts more than a knife to the stomach!' He spoke
Deep. Why is he talking to me like this, is he indicating this at my direction?
I looked into his eyes and placed my hand on his cheek. I can't do this I can't date this boy. This is all I've ever wanted in my entire lifetime! But let's be honest do I deserve this? No. I've been thinking about me this whole time and I know how much my mind changes but this is not how it's meant to be! A tear slowly made its way down my face dripping of at my pointed chin.
' I'm sorry Jai, I can't do this!'
His face froze In action. The finely lined lips of his opened but no words escaped. A blink broke his moment of silence which soon lead to his eyes closing and his head slowly resting on my shoulder. I could hear his muffled sniffling and cries but it would only lead from one thing to another and then, sex. Jai awoke at reality and turned to look at me; I looked away.
Gently placing his head on to my bed I walked out. I would pack my things and leave for Abby's tomorrow.