HOLDEN: Book Two of The Dark Moon Series

Chapter 4

RAELYNN'S POV

I know without the shadow of a doubt that Luka figured out I was lying. I mean I'm a great liar and all but it's hard to lie to him, especially when it comes to my wellbeing. But I had to. If he knew what really happened at school today he would have had both Willow and I pulled out and homeschooled. He's overprotective like that.

"Lynn hunny Willow is here for you." Taking a deep breath I clean up my room a bit and touch my scar. It's a habit whenever her name is brought up. Keeps me in check really and reminded of who my friends really are. There's a knock on my door and I open it to find Willow standing in the door way.

"Willow." I say her name as calmly as I possibly can. She looks back at me with a frigid glare.

"Raelynn." I allow her into my room and lock the door. I watch as she takes in her surroundings before she finally deems my bed worthy enough of her butt. Gosh she's so damn stuck up.

"So obviously we need to talk." She says to me cooly. I roll my eyes and sit on the opposite end of her.

"Obviously." Picking up a stuff animal Naal bought me I hold it in my arms and rest my head on it.

"Today did not go as I expected it would." Willow says crossing her legs.

"Same here."

"So what are we going to do about it?" Her question is as much valid as it is clear. We both know what we're going to do about what happened today. I just think we're coming to terms with the thought.

"We're going to kick those girls' asses that what we're going to do." I tell her leaning back. She nods her head and looks over to the empty space beside me. Sighing I nod to the spot and she slowly crawls over to sit beside me. For a good ten minutes there's an empty silence between us. There's no emotion charged in it. No heavy breathing just silence. It's not comfortable... but it's not uncomfortable either.

"If we do this it means we're really going to have to reconcile our differences and become... friends..." I nod my head slowly trying to accept what she just said but it's hard to digest.

"Yeah... you're right." My head falls back against my headboard and hers follows soon after.

"Well then... I guess I will start..." I close my eyes and wait to hear the crap that is about to spew out of her annoying little mouth.

"I hate you. Plain and simple. I have since I was a little girl. But the main source of that anger has never been by your hand and for that I apologize. A lot of the mean and hurtful things I've done to you was wrong and stupid and if I could take them back then trust me I would but I cant. What I can do is apologize profusely for royally screwing up what could have been an amazing friendship... You're not a bad person Raelynn. In fact... you're pretty damn cool if I'm being honest." She stops to take a breath and I realize that my eyes haven't closed since the first word was uttered from her mouth. I force myself to blink and stare at the ceiling.

"I'm not about to have a whole sob story because it's pointless. What I am saying is what matters. I screwed up. I'm screwed up. But I am mature enough to admit it and ask for forgiveness. I'm going to need a friend to get through these next four years and to be honest... I'm going to need a friend period. I'd like for that person to be you." My head nods on its own accord a few times before I can manage out a word.

"That was quite the speech. And I'll give you this, I know you weren't lying. I could hear it in your breathing. So... I guess... I forgive you. It's what Jesus would do and what he command all of his children to do. I forgive you Willow. I forgive you for all of the hurt you caused me and the physical pain you brought upon my life. I forgive you for the misery you put me through. I forgive you for being you. But it's going to take me a long time to truly forget what happened. For the sake of survival in that crappy place they call high school I will put the past in the past but it doesn't mean I'm going to automatically trust you with everything and tell you all of my secrets. You're still a mean and spiteful girl. But I guess this is the first step."