Saving Thoughts

53. I'm sorry

It's been 4 years since you left. I finally had enough strength to completely erase our memories. I took the Teddy bear you gave me on Valentine's Day and ripped it apart. Out of sudden a note fell onto the floor with its soft stuffing. I picked it up and I read,

" I don't know how many years has passed but if you ever read this letter, I just wanted to say I love you and I always did. I loved you so much that I decided it would be better if I left. I didn't want someone like you to be sad the moment I'm gone. It's the final stage of cancer for me. I'll rather you hate me and eventually forget about me then have you stand in front of my grave for days crying and scolding me for breaking my promise. I never left you. I'm always watching over you although you don't see me. But I'm always there.

I flipped the piece of paper.

I'm sorry.

Those were his last words. No wonder he dropped out of school, changed his number and was rarely at home. It still didn't make sense but it's too late to say goodbye.