I'm only gonna break your heart

Ally fever

Aaliyah

All I want is for Chris Toe to ask me out, too bad he's in to Sunshine. I just wish he wasn't. I love him so much, and I can't climb out out the bottomless pit of love over night. No one can. It's impossible to climb, period. Love is unconditional no matter what, even if it turns into friend love, it's irrevocable, and anyways, the chances of it turning into friend love is one in a million. I do understand why he doesn't like me, I just can't shake it off like Mariah Carey said to do. Sunshine is beautiful, and nice and Maybe she does deserve him ( I mean she does deserve him). So I guess it's settled, so if he'd like to be my friend I would be okay with that.

" Tell me what you think about this," I told my brother Sean Jarman. I wrote a song about Chris, and I want to get my older brother's opinion so I guess I'll sing to him.

Shedding all these tears tears

For you

And I swear to god that I can't

Live without you

You grab my emotions

You make me laugh

You make me cry

I wish you could understand

I think about ya night and day

Dawn and dust

When your away

When your here

Dreaming and awake

Calm and afraid Wether there's love and hate

Your on my mind

On my mind

Yeah

I stopped and looked at my brother." That's nice, what's it called?" he said.

" On my mind," I answered.

" That's great, sis, I love it very much," he said.

" Thank you so much, I was just so inspired by a lucky boy," I said sarcastically and left the room so I wouldn't have to talk to him about that. I did trust him, I trusted that he knew what he was talking about so I got my camera, sat it on my desk, sat on my chair, got my guitar, and hit the record bottom, I am putting this on YouTube.

The next morning I got on my morning bus. I sat down in a random seat saving a spot for Faith, but Chris sat by me instead. I looked sorta lost, but I wanted him to tell me what was going on, and not me have to say it." Hey, girl," he said, and I was a little confused. No, I was really confused." You look drop dead gorgeous."

A smile came across my face, and I said," Thank you." He put his arm around my neck and I could no longer hold it in, I had to find out," Why are you acting unusual?"

" What do you mean?" he asked with a smirk on display.

" I mean your smitten, and talking to me for a change," I said."

" Babe, I've been meaning to ask you if you have a boyfriend?" he asked me, and I didn't really know what to say, what to do, what I would do if he asked me out, how do I figure out what to say?

He didn't like me before so what's so different, I thought to myself. Now I know what to say. " Yes," I lied hoping he doesn't ask who.

He took his arm off of me, and raised his voice when he asked," Who?" the question I did not want to answer so why answer it? I asked myself. And answered to myself that he'd know I am lying. Obviously. Why is he so predictable? Why is he either gonna say something cocky or something funny? Why? What in the hell is up with him.