Impossible Love

Chapter 2- Sun rise

I Laid on that cold, bumpy path for quite a while. When I finally snapped out of dreaming for a better life and came back down to earth, I realised that It was going to become light soon and I couldn't think of anything better than seeing that beautiful, fresh sun rise. Maybe that would lighten my mood and clear my long trail of thoughts that were scattered all around my head. I stood up quite fast and it soon became clear to me that I was back on the ground. My legs had gone completely dead from not moving them for a number of hours and I had a numb bum-_-. If I wanted to see the sun rise though, I would have to get my ass in gear and stand up. Eventually, after being lazy again, I got up. I started to walk up this grass hill towards what I though would be a good spot to watch the sun rise. And damn was I right. I reached the top just before that gorgeous sun started to emerge over the hills. I sat down on the bench and soon enough I was distracted from my thoughts and it helped me forget my pain. I might come up here again, it really helps, it makes me feel free I guess.

In the corner of my eye, I see a figure. I'm scared to look over, I mean who else would even be up at this time? I just keep staring at the sun rise hoping that this figure doesn't notice me. Then they sit next to me. Wow uhm should I just go? Wait no, I was here first. I quickly jolt my eyes over to see as to whom was sitting next to me. It soon became clear to me that this 'figure' was of a boy, well a young man to be precise. There was just silence, kind of an awkward silence. It was as if we wanted to talk to each other but neither of us was willing to break the chain of silence that filled the air. Then, out of the blue, he spoke..

His voice was kind of husky with a kind of attractive tone. I was trying to imagine what his face would look like without turning to him and making it obvious that I want to know if he's good looking. Suddenly I was broke from my train of thought, with him repeating

"It helps doesn't it".

His voice was kind of louder because of me making him repeat the question.

"Uhm helps what?"

I might of sounded really dumb but I honestly had no clue what he was on about.

"It helps take you away from your thoughts, it takes you to your own little world" he replied, kind of sweetly but not really showing much emotion.

"How do you know that I don't just want to see the sun rise?" i say bluntly.

"Because we both know that neither of us would be here just to see the sun rise. It's obvious we want to get distracted, to take the pain of daily life away" he replies calmly.

I just stay silent. i couldn't speak, it felt like i had a lump in my throat the size of a golf ball. Tears start to emerge in my eyes. My vision starts to go blurry and before i know it, a tear slips down my cheek. Those words were right. i don't just want to get distracted though, i didn't want to be here anymore. And I don't just mean with my family, I mean I don't want to be alive anymore.

He didn't see that I was crying, I was doing a silent cry, you know, one of those cries where you don't want anyone else to know. You kind of accidentally let one roll down you cheek and all you want to do it curl up in a ball but you can't, you stay calm but really, inside, you're screaming.

I didn't want him to feel sorry for me, I don't need sympathy. I'm old enough and stupid enough to deal with this pain on my own, I mean I've been doing it for so long anyway. I wish the ground would just swallow me up and shit me out in like Australia or somewhere far far away.

Neither of us spoke for a while, we were just soaking up each others company. It kinda felt good, having someone there who understood the kind of pain I was feeling. I didn't dare ask why he was feeling like this, I mean we're practically strangers so he wouldn't tell me anyway. Plus it was none of my business and I didn't want to seem rude.

Again, he broke the silence by rushing to his feet. He turned to me. I Immediately looked up and our eyes locked for the first time. They shimmered in the sunlight; looked like marbles. I quickly looked down, embarrassed by what a fool I must of looked like. I just stared in his eyes for like a minute straight, who even does that with strangers?

"I should probably get going, you know, family and stuff" he said as he scratched the back of his neck.

"Oh uh yeah same" I replied kind of fast and it came out like 'ooerryesme'. *imaginary face palm*. I'm such a tit. I repeated myself but this time a bit slower.

"So, bye I guess" he says kind of shyly, which actually looked really cute.

"Bye" I reply as I start to walk down the hill quite fast just realising how much of a fool I must of looked like. i don't even talk to strangers, why did I just talk to him? I am actually the biggest weirdo In the world.

The walk 'home' was really peaceful and it took a long Time because I didn't actually know where I was going. I was kind of just following my instinct. The whole walk though, all i could think about was that He knows what it's like. He feels my pain.

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