I never want to be without you

Twelve

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"I gonna be moving on moving on since I meet you
I know its wrong I know its wrong still I try "

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They say moving on is hard.Tama nga naman sila.Masyadong mahirap.Its been a year since what just happened.Simula nung araw na nalaman kong niloko niya ako.And this past 12 months hindi ako masyadong nakikihalubilo sa iba even some friends and classmates hindi na rin ako nakikisama sa kanila kasi feeling ko ang fake nila.Even myself feeling ko ang fake ko but the only person that I seems not fake is my parents.My family.Si mom.Si dad.Sila yung umiintindi sa akin.Sila lang yung nag mamahal sa akin kahit sarili ko hindi ko maramdamang minamahal ko.That night of Dec.31 ako lang ang sumalubong sa bagong taon.Nag stay lang ako sa tabi ng dagat habang umiiyak then when its already 12:00 am I watch the sky full of fireworks saying 'HAPPY NEW YEAR'.I watch the people enjoying the beach, saying happy new year, hugging each other, kissing, jumping people who celebrating the new year event While me?, Im just sitting in sand while watching them ALONE..Its soo SAD to me to welcome new year with a sad feeling, sad face or should I say crying face while saying SaD new Year to me and saying Sad birthday to me.Then when I got home I was soo shock when I saw my Dad in front of our house and my mom besides him.And at their back was tito Gene, tita Joan and Dennis na katayo na parang hinihintay talaga nila ako.Dali dali akong lumapit kay dad sabay yakap sa kanya tapos napaiyak nanaman ako.And he just saying 'Tahan na princess'.That time hindi ko alam kung alam na ba ni papa at mama kung anong pinag gagawa ni Nath sa akin.Hindi ko alam kung naikwento ni Dennis sa kanila yung nangyari that time.Pero hindi na sila nagtanong pa sa akin.Then the next day sinabi ni Dad na he will going back to London, which is lugar kung saan  yung bussness niya.Kaya pinilit ko siyang sumama sa kanya pero sabi niya naman sa akin na itapos ko na yung schooling ko kasi kulang tatlong months nalang daw  graduate na ako ng college with the course of Bachelor of Arts in English pero I insist na hindi na ako papasok ng school.Na hindi ko na ipagpapatuloy yung pag aaral ko kasi baka ibagsak ko rin lang yun kasi wala akong balak na mag aral para saan pa diba?kung wala rin namang saysay.Kaya yun napilit ko siya na sumama ako dito sa London at dito na rin ako tumira kasama si Daddy.Si Mom naman sumunod dito sa London the next month kaya ngayun kumpleto na ang pamilya ko.At dito ko na rin ipinagpapatuloy yung pag aaral ko sa London tutal nagstop ako ng pag aaral ko kaya inulit ko ulit yung 4rth year college ko then a few months later graduate na rin ako sa wakas.Then last december 31 hindi ko napigilang umiyak dahil nalala ko nanaman yung mga nangyari noong nakaraang taon pero ngayun hindi ko na sinalubong ang bagong taon ng may malungkot na mukha kundi mukhang masaya.

Loving can hurt
Loving can hurt,sometimes
But is the only thing that I know

The song  is playing on my phone with a hearphone habang naglalakad sa hallway palabas ng campus.

'Yeah love can hurt.Like what did I was felling right now. And how can I move on sa mga bagay na nakasanayan ko?sa mga bagay na naging buhay ko?Love really can hurt.

"Bye Sam!!" Sigaw and wave his hand. Classmate ko happy-go-lucky siya na kala mo close friends niya lahat ng students dito sa campus.But I insist not to greet him back.Ganito na kasi ako simula noong nayari yung pangyayaring iyon.Madalas na mag isa,madalas hindi nakikipag usap,at hindi na ako yung taong pala kwento

"Bye Ms. Gasmen"my proffesor said his bye to me and I just nodded.Professor siya na akala mo student kasi yung way ng pag treat sa mga students,yung way na magdamit etc.Actually may gusto 'yan sa akin sinabi niya sa akin nung nasa middle yung semister namin but I rejected him.Felling ko fake lang dun naman yung feeling niya for me.And one more thing,simula nang pumasok ako dito sa UR(University of Rochester) maraming nagagandhan daw sa akin...hahahaha they are such a good joker..then many of boys courting me but I just ignore them.ALL OF THEM.

When I reach the gate I already see him,. the guy that always there for me,when I need comforter,when I someone to talk, when I need to go out, making smile, do whatever I want etc.

"Hey.lets go home its already quarter to six suppose to be we're already at home" he said as he put his arm on my shoulder and he smiled at me so I smiled back.

"Nahh...I don't want to go home pa..Ang boring kasi sa bahay ehh" I said tapos binuksan niya yung pinto ng Lamborghini niya kaya pumasok na ako sa loob ng sasakyan at hinintay siyang makapasok rin.

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(A/N:short update lang guys:)..enjoy reading....bawi nalang ako sa susunod)
LOL-lots of Love