Waiting for Superman ~ Part 3 (3rd & Final Book of Hero or Hellian Trilogy)

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I got me something to eat at a deli and drove to a bad part of town where junkies were known to do business and something in my memory clicked and I smiled as fate was on my side. Allan stood there with another man doing a deal and when they saw my vehicle they both began to run but I stepped out and yelled, "Allan!"

He stopped and turned around with a wicked smile on his blue lips that made me gag and he began to strut toward me.

"I've been thinking of you a lot. Word was that you are marrying Merlin."

This made me gag again and I nearly threw up my lunch when he was close enough for me to smell him.

"I came to tell you something." I said which came out a lot more fearful than I expected.

He smiles more and says, "I know, you want me to hide you from him."

I shake my head and said, "I came to say, tell the devil I am sending more." And I pulled my Kimber and shot him once in the chest and once in the head.

I cannot believe what I have just done! I turn and vomit as my mind races and all I can think is to get away as soon as I can.

When darkness falls I have calmed enough to stop driving and find that I have drove clear to New York again but not to New York City.

That night I sleep in my car and in the morning I am well enough to eat and get some soup, bread, and crackers along with water before my mind settles enough and I have convinced myself that I am okay and remember the bible verse about an eye for an eye, tooth for a tooth. I vanquished an evil from this world and when my time comes I will pay for my crime.

At noon I find another place to eat and I go inside and sit in a corner booth where I order another bowl of soup and bread and as I sit there a few obnoxious voices sound in an accent I know. Gypsies! Not just any gypsies but Stefan's buddies!

My blood boils as they talk and I try to keep my attention on my lunch until one says, "Hey its Jewels."

I freeze a moment before looking up to see them looking at me.

"Holy shit you look like hell!"

I try to ignore them and return to my lunch but they continue to throw jabs at me about how I deserve to be homless for not following the gypsy customs and such which turns to them saying they would have married me but Stefan had laid claim to me long ago.

The mention of his name makes me cold and shamefully a tear falls. I hate that tear because they just laugh before leaving but I catch what they say which was about how I deserved what Stefan gave me.

I pay for my half eaten lunch and discreetly follow them to the rv park. I know this is where Stefan is, although right now he is perhaps out working and so I leave.

I have dinner and sleep in my car again until dawn when I return to the trailer park where I see his truck which he gets into around 9:00 and I follow him to work at a construction site. It makes me angry how he talks and struts about and before he gets off work I decide what I am going to do.

I leave him a note on his window which he smiles at and meets me near a field.

The note had said how sorry I was for what I have done and how I wanted to apologize because he was right and had every reason to do what he did although it all is a complete lie.

When he gets out and comes toward me with cocky grin I say, "You ruined my life!" which makes him halt and stare at me and so I finish. "I'm going to ruin yours!" and I shoot both of his legs before turning to leave.

I have no idea how I got back to Lancaster but when I do I am royally sick and have another episode of throwing up and crying.

I had become a monster!

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