In Search.

6.

I couldn't sleep. I was going on a lockdown with the GAC, and would be spending a week with Zak. I was getting nervous, being around him and his stalker lady person sometimes creeps me out. I started packing and getting myself ready, I dressed in trackies and a hoodie, it was going to be a 5hr drive and I didn't want to be uncomfortable. I called a taxi and headed back to Zak's. I drove up the street and saw Aaron and Billy out the front, I couldn't see Zak though.

I hopped out and Aaron helped with my bags, I had plenty. "You packed for three week vacation?" Aaron giggled, "well I gotta be pre-pared for many things" I winked and laughed. I looked around and tried to see Zak, "he's at the shops getting snacks for the trip. Just in case you where wondering" Billy quickly looked away and mumbled something to himself. I bowed my head and giggled to myself. "For someone who has gift you don't seem to brag about it or really talk about it" Aaron started to make small talk, "it's complicated. It's a blessing and a curse. I worked so hard to shut it off when I don't need it. It's exhausting being around people and feeling their emotions and especially when I get unexpected visitors." I was honest, it did take me months to succeed in being able to ignore my gift when I didn't want to, it got too hard and that's where my life altered.

Zak showed up a little after Aaron and I had a little chat. He jumped out of the car and paced towards me "you came! I didn't think you where" I didn't know what to say, he always somehow left me speechless. "Alrighty! on the road we go. Let's get in!" Billy honked the horn and off we went. Zak and Billy where up the front and Aaron and myself in the back. For the first hour we all talked and discussed the location but then we distanced ourselves and did our own thing. Aaron was snap chatting, Zak was constantly texting someone and I kept my eye on the view while listening to music. Zak kept looking back at me through his mirror, his eyes shot me intense looks and he didn't look away. I stayed locked at his, he cracked a smile and and giggled and bowed my head into my hands. We made our  stop Zak and Billy had to pee, Aaron had to smoke and I needed a little walk to clear my head. We piled back into he car but Zak got in the back with me, I shook my head and placed my ear phones into my ears and zoned out. My phone buzzed and I had a text from Zak "you're too quiet. Talk to me?" I have Zak a slight push and laughed. We constantly where hitting each other and playing around. I went to slap him softly but my fingers fell in the empty spaces between his fingers. He held my hand, I didn't let go. He pulled me towards him and somehow I drifted to sleep on his lap.

We had arrived at the hotel, the guys went to check in and let me sleep. The hotel didn't have a spare room for me so the guys where seeing who's room I could stay in, "you snore Aaron and Billy you talk too much. I don't wanna be stuck with either" Zak looked pissed. "Well then she stays with you Zak. You have two double beds, you'll be fine" Aaron knew Zak was going to make this arrangement. "Do you reckon she'll have any issues?" Zak didn't know which way to agree on, he did want to bunk with me but didn't want the guys to see it as obvious as it was. "Wait. Who am I bunking with?" I strolled in yawning and managed to jump in to see where I'm staying. "You're with me, if that's okay? There's two beds" Zak piped up and told me the plans. "Yea that's fine. I'd still bunk with you if there was only a single bed.." They all stared at me. I'm assuming they think I'd try to get into Zak's pants when all I meant was if there's a bed, I'm fine. Aaron laughed and headed to his room. We all agreed to unpack and meet up and go looking around.

I followed Zak to our room answer to unpack, it was a little room, our beds where close. He stared at me "if you're uncomfortable with this we could arrange something else?" I didn't know what his playing at, we had fun in the car and now he acts weird "why would this be weird? Nothing is wrong. You seem to keep pulling me in then toss me back out. What's the go?" I stood close to him and I must've intimated him because he moved back and cowered. I scoffed and went to change. I walked away dumping my bags "i'll take this bed" I slammed the door, I was mad now. Doesn't he like me? I shook it off and got dressed, I came out and Zak was gone though his bags where all still here. As I left the room I could hear him talking to someone, I think it was Jay "she's nothing I've ever met. I'm nervous man and I think I've just gotten her upset." I quickly came out and I've never seen Zak move so quick, I moved passed them and met up with Billy and Aaron, us three left while Zak and Jay strolled along later.

"You like her." Jay smirked, Zak looked up and laughed "I'm interested. I think she's special, she's different. And she's really honest and I love that." Jay widen his eyes, "wow already made an impact on your life" he winked and laughed. I could see them laughing and when Zak smiles, it's like a different Zak. We strolled around the area doing silly things and all bonded. "So Ray any man in your life?" I could tell Jay was interested in knowing so Zak could find out "there was but he broke my heart, he cheated on me. I guess I wasn't satisfying him. I did put work before him and he didn't like what I brought home. I guess I'm in Zak's boat where being with someone isn't on the cards for me." I hated talking about Jarrad, I thought he was the love of my life. We all started to head back, I walked behind the guys just thinking. Zak came and held my hand, I looked up at him "it's a hand Ray. Just hold it" so I did. The guys all sped up and left us alone.