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Zak and myself decided not to go out and to stay in. Aaron went out with his friends leaving us alone, Zak headed downstairs to get a drink. While Zak went to get a drink I ran into my bathroom and tried to fix myself up, I put on my lip gloss and fixed my clothes. I heard Zak walking up the stairs and ran out of the room, to my surprise it's wasn't Zak it was Jerusha. "What! Why are you here?" I tried not to yell in case Zak heard me, Jerusha just glanced at me and looked really upset. She loudly weeped and vanished. I stood puzzled and Zak came up the stairs and into my room "You okay?" I shrugged off my look "Yea fine. Come back to bed?" I guided Zak to the bed and sat on him, I led my hands around his chest and down his arms. "If you keep doing that I'll probably sleep. Feels good." Zak had shut his eyes and started to groan. I started unbuttoning his shirt, he opened his eyes and watched me undress him. I rolled off him so I could pull him on top of me "Amazing." He let out a little giggled and started to passionately kiss me. I spread my legs and he comfortably laid between them, he started to take my top off. We heard Aaron arrive home and Zak quickly jumped off me.

"You guys decent?" We heard Aaron at my door, Zak quickly threw his top on. "Come in Aaron" I let Aaron walk in and he sat there smirking at us both. We all huddled on the bed talking, in the corner of my eyes Jerusha popped up again. I couldn't take my eyes off her, she had tears flowing down her face. "Ray? What's up?" Zak kept looking at where my eyes glanced to and me, "Umm nothing I just---" I trialled off, we all heard a female cry. "What the fuck?" Zak stood fast, he looked around the room and looked out the window. The guys seemed pretty riled up, I just stood there looking at Jerusha. "How can you not be bothered by this?" Aaron turned to me and watched me, his eyes where full of curiosity. "Don't look out the window. She's right next to Zak." Zak shot his face at me and quickly moved next to me "By her you mean Jerusha?" I looked at Zak and nodded. Jerusha got close to Zak and eyed me down "She's no good Zak. Run." Zak shook his head, I clenched my jaw and went to yell but she had vanished.

Zak left and didn't say goodbye, Aaron stayed with me and comforted me "See? He gets dark very quickly. Hey you going to come to our lockdown tomorrow?" I told Aaron that it is probably not best to go but Aaron wouldn't take my no for an answer. "You'll come. Good night." I was left alone, I curled into my blanket and started pondering the idea of leaving, leaving for good. Aaron's words where getting caught in my head 'always collide or come together and take on the paranormal world', also the voice from the previous lockdown saying to leave Zak also was stuck in my head. Clearly we aren't good for one another. I soon settled into a deep sleep, I dreamt of many thinks all relating to Zak; my safety, his safety and our future. I got up early and made breakfast for Aaron and myself, I was busy cooking and singing along to the radio and heard a hard knock at the door. I went to open it and Zak was waiting there, I opened the door "Oh hey" I acted like noting had happened, he walked in and gave me a big kiss "I thought about you all night" he guided me to the kitchen and I continued to cook. "I'm sorry about last night, I just really can't believe it's Jerusha." He hung his head low, it was bothering me that it was affecting me more than him but he was needing the sympathy.

I threw the knife in the sink, "Really Zak? You are troubled by it? What about me, having to deal with her constantly?" Zak shot up and looked very confused as to why I was bothered. "What is your problem?" He started to raise his voice and I staunched on him, not letting him try and intimidate me. Things where getting heated, Aaron came rushing down stairs and stood between us "Hey hey hey! Stop!" Aaron glanced at Zak then me, Zak backed off and headed outside. I still stood tall and still had heat radiating from my body. "Whoa Ray are you okay?" I rolled my eyes and turned to Aaron, a switch in my body turned off and I came back to normal. "Yea fine. What time are we leaving?" Aaron reassured me we are leaving at 10am, the lockdown was 30mins away from noisy Las Vegas. I got dressed and Aaron and myself headed to lockdown. We met the rest of the crew there minus Ashley, Zak stayed away from me for a whole till he needed me. "Ray, come for a walk through in the hotel with me? I want to see if you pick up something." I held Zak's hand and walked off, he looked at me weirdly "What I can't hold your hand?" I showed half a smile, we had reached the third floor. "We go from throwing knifes to hand holding?" He started to smirk and I threw my hands around his neck and kissed him.

Zak threw me up on the dresser, spreading my legs so he could be right up on me. "We really going to do this here?" I pulled away and spoke, I kept fiddling with Zak's zipper. "I'm all for it. They won't know" he rolled my skirt up and and started to play with me. I tilted my head back and started to moan, my breathing got faster. Zak's touch was sending me into a frenzy "Give it to me, Zak." Zak held my face and slowly entered into me, I wrapped my legs around him so he could easily thrust into me. We held each other's stare, every now and then we'd bump lips and kiss. I clutched hard on to Zak's butt, forcing him harder into me. He started to moan, he pushed me down laying me on the dresser and started to grab my breast. "Harder Zak." Zak started to have sweat drip down his face, he kept going hard. We held hands and before we knew it we both finished. Zak pulled me off the dresser and rolled my skirt back down, he came and cuddled me "Now that was uh something special." He grinned and we both headed back down to the crew.

They soon started there investigation, I didn't join. "Zak I'm not well, umm I'm going back to Aaron's okay. Good luck." I gave Zak one last kiss goodbye. I wasn't sick, while Zak was distracted for 12 hours I was leaving. I couldn't stand these mood swings with Zak, they where giving me whiplash. I was doing the right thing. Zak didn't need me screwing up his life. I fell for Zak hard, and it couldn't be anything more, we're too alike. I needed to get my life back on track, I needed to head back to Paris. I wrote Zak a letter and within a blink, I was out of his life forever.