In Search.

7.

 Zak held my hand until we got inside our room, he closed door and spun me around to face him. I held onto his jacket and we stood about an inch away from each other "you seem nervous?" Zak looked down at me and cradled my face in his hands, this was all confusing. He pulls me away and then moments like this he pulls me in "I can't keep up with your mood swings. First you want me close then you're pushing me away." He didn't move, he kept his eyes on me, i felt exposed by his look. "You're fascinating, you intrigue me. I get worried, I don't want to lead you on but I can't help myself" He moved his gaze from my eyes to my lips, he moved forward coming closer to me. The world seemed to have slowed down, I was inhaling deeper and my legs started to shake, we kissed. I pulled away, leaving Zak still having his lips pouted. I wanted to go back onto him, but nothing could ever happen and I wasn't going to get myself in a situation where my heart would break. "Ray" Zak grabbed my hand "Come back", I panicked and ran straight to the bathroom. I had a slight belly ache and started throwing up, "Are you okay Ray? I'm sorry!" He sounded worried, I could hear him trying to unlock the door. "I'm fine, just dinner isn't agreeing with my stomach. I'm gonna have a bath, be out soon." What a lie, of course it was the kiss but it wasn't a bad kiss, it was knowing I wanted more and knowing I wasn't going to get my way. I started my bath and closed my eyes and relaxed. I tried to remember this kiss, the feeling of his lips but I couldn't.

 I opened my eyes and there she was again, this mysterious female ghost. She stared me down, "I can see you. What do you want?" I stood up and wrapped a towel round my body. "Zak." She whispered his name and vanished. I was getting tired of this girl following me, I stormed out into the room and saw Zak passed out on the bed. The girl appeared again, she started to caress Zak's back, she stared at me and giggled "I would fight for him but you'd win" she had one more look and him then off she left again. I needed to get to the bottom of this, I quickly got dressed and headed to the pool outside, I took  my computer down and started researching about Zak's love life. Nothing. I was getting no here and none of his ex's looked like this girl. I came across this video, there she was, a portrait of this woman. Zak writing poems for her, Zak wanting to spend the night with her. I stood up, it's all come together! "Jerusha" I was astonished at what i found. It all makes sense, the jealous feelings, her being around Zak, even Zak mentioning he has a female spirit who is very possessive of him. "What are you doing down here at this time?" I jumped and screamed, Billy had scared me. "Couldn't sleep and didn't want to disturb Zak with my typing." Billy sat next to me, he had a peek of my laptop "Why are you looking up Jerusha?" Billy caught me, he raised an eyebrow and waited on my response. "It's crazy but I think Jerusha is haunting Zak, I think she is his 'female possessive' spirit" I didn't know if the guys had already cracked down on this, and it took me ages to realize. "Serious! We all thought the same but we didn't think it was true. It took her long to come back an haunt Zak so that's why we ruled her out of being the spirit that's attached to him."

 Billy walked me back up to my room "I'll keep our little secret on the down low. Goodnight." I quietly walked in and Zak had staunched right next to me making me fall onto him which sent us both on the floor. "What are you doing!?" I was very angry and shaky, Zak scared the shit out of me. "Looking for you! What are you doing out so late?" Zak helped me up, still waiting on a response. "I couldn't sleep, so I went downstairs so I wouldn't annoy you" I started to slower my voice, in the dark I could see Zak coming up close to me again. It was déjà vu, we had just done this. Though this time, I didn't hold back, I swiftly moved towards Zak I wanted to taste his lips again and this time I want to remember it. He was shirtless so I couldn't grab his shirt or something so I pulled him towards me by his pants. I locked my lips with his, if his lips tasted like a feeling I would describe it as dangerous. I licked his bottom lips and he grunted softly, his hands where wandering around my body. I pulled away and kissed his forehead "Goodnight" I went to my bed and laid down, facing away from Zak and his bed. I heard him move closer and get in my bed, I tossed around and watched him get comfortable. "Don't worry, I'm not gonna hurt you, I just want to lay with you" I smiled and grabbed his hand and held it, "Zak?" He moaned "Please just don't make me fall for you." I had to say it, he needed to be warned. I was glad we sat in the dark and I couldn't see his reaction. It was silent, "Promise. But I think I could fall for you" my heart stopped. I cracked a smile, I turned to Zak and lightly placed my lips against his. He rolled over me and kissed me passionately. He pulled away and brought me into his chest, I got comfortable in his little nook. He brushed away my hair on my face and I could feel his warm breath down my spine "Goodnight." I felt Zak loosely let go of me, I knew he was asleep. "I know you're going to change my life." I looked at Zak, I sighed and closed my eyes and drifted into a deep sleep.