Saving me from trouble|l.h. c.t. c.d.

Chapter 37

CECE'S POV

              My heart was still beating out of my chest. I was freaked out. I wanted to get up and just stay away for a bit. I got up slowly. "Where are you going?" Jack whispered. "I wanna be alone for a bit Jack just for a bit" I said. I walked away from the couch, I was laying on with Luke. Luke was still asleep. I go into the hallway. I see Calum. "Hey Cece you okay? You look like you just seen a ghost." Cal said. "I had a nightmare" I said and shaking a little. "What was the nightmare about?" Cal asked. "Luke.... and the twins.... Luke cheated on me and hit me in my dream" I said quietly.  "What?" Cal said with shock in his face. "Can I just stay here with you?" I asked. Cal nodded. "Guys we need to actually get back on the bus." Mikey said. "I'll carry Luke. He really needed the sleep" Jack said. I followed Jack and see Luke curled up on the couch snoring softly. Jack carries Luke to the bus. I go to Cal's bunk. "You can stay in here with me" Cal said. I nodded and got in with him. I fall asleep.

LUKE'S POV

           I wake up. I'm in my bunk by myself. That's weird, I remember I fell asleep on the couch with Cece. I get up. "Jack? Mikey? Ash? Cece?" I called out. "We're in the lounge room." Jack said. I go to the lounge room. I only see my brother and other two band mates. "Where's Cal and Cece?" I asked. "Uh not sure bro they might still be asleep" Ash said. "But Cece wasn't next to me" I said confused. "that's because she didn't sleep next to you bro" Ash said. "Yeah I put you in your bunk last night and Cece didn't climb in with you" Jack said. I walk to the bunks. I go to the other extra bunk. Cece wasn't there. I go to Cal's bunk. I see Cal has his arm wrapped around her waist and Cece cuddled up with her face in his neck. I walked away. I start pulling at my hair. I am so angry right now........ "Luke are you okay there buddy?" Mikey asked. "Leave me alone Michael" I grit my teeth. I wanted to punch something. I get up. I see that we are at a resting area. I go outside. I see Niall. "hey Lewi" Niall says. I ignored him and found a wall to a building. It was the loos. I punched the wall. I didn't stop til I felt Niall and Ash pull me away from the wall.  "Hey. hey. What's wrong bud?" Ash asked me. "nothing Ashton. Nothing at All I'm just exhausted that's all" I yelled at Ash. "Simmer down Lucas" Jack came up to us. "How about you shut the fuck up Jack!" I sneered. "Woah Luke what has gotten into you" Ash said. I pushed them all away. "Nothing! OKAY I JUST WANT TO BE ALONE!" I yelled and tugged at my hair. I went back too the bus and into my bunk. I plugged in my headphones and turned on some sleeping with sirens. I got on twitter. 

@Luke5SOS: "The painted memories / That washed out all of the seas / I'm stuck in between a nightmare and lost dreams"  

        I was tired and pissed. I look at my hands. My knuckles are bleeding. I didn't care. It doesn't hurt. I don't feel the pain.  I sing along with the song as it's on full blast.

She says she wants to end it all when she's all alone in her room
She cries
The way she feels inside is too much for her
When all you got is these four walls
It's not that hard to feel so small
Or even exist at all
How come no one heard her when she said

Maybe I'm better off dead
If I was would it finally be enough
To shut out all those voices in my head?
Maybe I'm better off dead
Better off dead!
Did you hear a word
Hear a word I said?
This is not where I belong
You gonna miss me when I'm gone
Gone, gone
This is not where I belong
You gonna miss me when I'm gone

She doesn't know she's beautiful
'Cause no one's ever told her so
And the demons that she hides are all she knows
And maybe she can fall in love with someone in her life that she could trust
And tell her she's enough (Will someone tell her she's enough?)
How come no one heard her when she said

Maybe I'm better off dead
If I was would it finally be enough
To shut out all those voices in my head?
Maybe I'm better off dead
Better off dead!
Did you hear a word
Hear a word I said?
This is not where I belong
You gonna miss me when I'm gone
This is not where I belong
You gonna miss me when I'm gone

When all you got is these four walls
It's not hard to feel so small
When all you got is these four walls
It's not hard to feel so small
All she wanted was to be enough
All she wanted was to be enough
So what does it take?
Maybe it's not too late
Yeah no one heard her when she said

Maybe I'm better off dead
If I was would it finally be enough
To shut out all those voices in my head?
Maybe I'm better off dead
Better off dead!
Did you hear a word
Hear a word I said?
This is not where I belong
You gonna miss me when I'm gone
Gone, gone
This is not where I belong
You gonna miss me when I'm gone
Gone, gone
This is not where I belong
You gonna miss me when I'm gone.

      I tuned out the world.