Who To Love

Chapter 7

A/N – Sorry for such a long wait for an update on who to love! In the A/N in chapter 15 of beach bliss it explains where I have been, if you’re curious! I don’t really want to go over it again but if you would like to know go check out beach bliss! :) Anyways, last week I updated beach bliss and now for who to love! Instead of updating every day or second day like before I will be updating once a week, both books. So happy to be back & I hope this chapter makes up for the lost time! Enjoy xo

Sara and I sat on my bed, neither of us saying a single word. Sara came over pretty much instantly after I had called her. I was lucky to have a best friend like her, but right now I wasn’t feeling so grateful. “Are you positive? Do you really believe that you’re pregnant?” Sara broke the silence. She brought her voice down to a whisper when she said pregnant. I nodded my head; a tear fell from my cheek. I had no idea what I would do if I was pregnant. Sara sighed and walked over to where she put her purse down and pulled out a paper bag. “Here.” She handed the bag to me. I took the bag and looked inside. At the bottom of the bag there were two pregnancy tests. Just looking at them made my stomach turn. I rolled the bag back up and threw it on the bed. “Aren’t you going to take them?” Sara asked confused, taking a seat beside me. “What am I going to do if it says positive?” I asked her. “How am I going to tell my parents and Ty? Am I going to keep it? What about adoption? Abortion?” After I started going on about being pregnant and what I would do, I couldn’t stop myself. “Ashley.” Sara interrupted. “Take the tests. If it comes back positive then we can go over all those options. There’s still the chance of it being negative too ok?” I sighed, picked up the bag with the two tests inside and headed into my bathroom.

After peeing on both tests I threw the bag in the garbage, washed up and took the tests out to Sara. I knew that these were about to be the longest three minutes of my entire life. After three minutes of silence the tests finally beeped. Sara and I looked at each other in sync. “I can’t look.” I said as I handed them to Sara. “Are you sure you don’t want to be the first person to look at these?” She asked. I nodded and looked away. Honestly, I wanted absolutely nothing to do with those to tests. “Uh Ashley.” I turned my head to look at her. A nervous look in her eyes. “There both positive.”

The grass outside Ty’s house smelled fresh like it had just been cut. The garden lining the walkway to his door also smelt like a strong floral smell. I looked around before walking up the path. In the window of his house he peeked through the blinds. When he saw me his face lit up. I wish I didn’t have to tell him that I was pregnant. I wish this would just all go away. That I could wake up and this would just all be a dream, but it wasn’t. The door to the house was already open and Ty stepped outside. “What a beautiful surprise.” He said pulling me into a hug and planting a kiss on my lips. “Are you home alone?” I asked, forcing a smile. “Yeah, come in.” Ty said grabbing my hand and leading me towards the door. “Are you okay?” He asked as I took of my shoes. “Why wouldn’t I be?” I asked, nervous that he could tell that I was about to tell him something that would change our lives forever. “You just seem distracted.” I sighed with relief. “Yeah I have a lot on my mind.” I followed Ty into his living room and took a seat on his couch. “That’s actually why I came here. To talk to you about-“I paused, I still had a chance to run away and end this all. I couldn’t do that to him though and I definitely couldn’t do that to our baby. “About what’s been distracting me.” I finished. He looked at me, a look of worry on his face. “Is everything okay?” He asked sitting beside me. I sighed and looked away, a tear forming in the corners of my eyes. “Ashley what’s wrong?” He asked. I looked back at his beautiful face. We weren’t ready to be parents. We were kids ourselves. I admired everything I could about Ty; I wanted to remember everything about him because I had no idea what he would do when I told him. I didn’t have any doubt that he wouldn’t be there for me, but there was always that possibility. I shook my head and let the tears fall from my eyes. “Come here.” He went to pull me into a hug when I pushed him away. “Don’t.” I said sternly. “Why not?” He asked, clearly confused. “I’m—“I stopped, how could do this to us? How could I let this happen? I looked away; I knew I wouldn’t be able to stand the look on his face when I told him. “I’m pregnant.” I finished and let myself sob. For a few minutes it was silent, nothing but my sobs filled the room. He stood up and took a few steps towards the kitchen before turning around again to face me. “I think you should leave.” I looked up at him, stunned. That was the last thing I expected from him. He turned around and walked away from me leaving me in the empty living room. I picked up my purse and headed for the door, this time letting the tears silently fall from my cheeks.

The whole car ride home was a big blur, literally. I cried so much I couldn’t see a single thing. I sped pretty much the whole way home too. I expected to get pulled over but I didn’t, which was surprising. I just wanted to get home. Even being in my car brought memories of Ty rushing back to me. The passenger seat even smelt strongly of his cologne. I pulled into the driveway, shut the car down and ran inside. I was praying that there was no one in the house, the last thing I needed was to answer my parent’s million questions. To my advantage, no one was home. I ran to my bedroom and laid on my bed and cried. Hours went by; I was still in the same position. It finally sunk in. I was going to raise this child alone. Ty wouldn’t be there for me like he had been. I was in this by myself.