I don't even know why I'm doing this. I guess I think it'll help. It's been a month and a half without you it still hurts I still break down. I replay everything we did, said in my head and I don't know why but I can't stop it. I remember everything the first time you held my hand, the first time you kissed me. The first time you held me when I cried, our first late night call, our first argument and all of them won't stop replaying and it hurts. I miss you so much. And even with everything that's happened I still love you I still want you and everyone asks me why. Why I miss you? Why I can't just let u go? Why I can't stop thinking about you? And I don't know sometimes I wish it would all go away that nothing had happened. but it did this is where we are, I'm broken and hurt again except this time your not there to pick up the pieces. Your not here at all your there with her doing everything we did with her saying everything u said to her and I'm left and it hurts. I still love you and I don't know how to get you out of my head. I can't get u out of my head.
