Tear of Winter [complete]

PART 6

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It is snowing.

The weather I hated the most.

But for some reason I felt calm when I look at it.

For the first time, I see the snow as small stars that shine brightly.

Every snow drops that falls from the sky I keep walking.

I keep walking towards my past, present and future.

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~Her Point of View~

I am dying am I?

I can feel my whole body getting numb. As I feel dizzy due to blood lost I can also feel my own warm blood spreading fast beneath me. The white snow that is so pure to look at was tinted with red. It’s depressing how I see it as good turning bad event.

I don't want to die yet. How could I die like this?

I still want to be with my son until he grows up. I have lot of things I want to do with my son by my side. But it seems reality is too cruel at me. All of those are also taken away from me.

This weather is making my condition worst. Aside for feeling numb it's also getting colder than before. I am dying; what an awful way to celebrate December.

My step mother really hates me that much to the point of doing this kind of thing. But I couldn't blame her. She thinks I was a failure as a mother and as a wife to her son. The irony, I want to curse someone but I also feel bad about it. She just stared at me while I’m trying to cover the stab wound she made earlier. I couldn't forget her face expression that time. It's like she was happy but afterwards she was dumb folded to what she has done. She too was shock imagining she's capable of killing someone. For the sake of her son I guess.

But I also have a son. I want to protect him from the likes of her. I don't want my son to inherit such attitude that they have. I need to stay alive.

I tried grabbing anything near me. Although I don't know the sense of what I'm doing I just want to stay alive. Please God if you're really there above help me. I'm so tired. I'm so tired of everything. All the problems you have given me I took them all as a challenge in life. But this is cruel. Way too cruel. I don't want to die leaving my son behind.

Just once give me a sign.

Give me a sign that everything will be alright especially for my son.

My mind is shutting down. I'm already losing hope. As I was about to close my eyes I saw a blurry vision of someone. I tried my best to open my eyes trying to regain consciousness and there I saw it clearly. Someone is approaching me. It's not just someone as I felt his presence is familiar. Oh God, thank you for this miracle. I would treasure this for as long as I live.

He looks at me and stared silently. My mind's a bit blank due to blood lost but I can still see him clearly. I wanted to see his face until the end. That's the only hope that's making me stay awake for this long. He kneeled down beside me, touches my face and removes the tears rolling down my cheeks. I was happy. I am happy from the bottom of my heart. So this is the gift God gave me. I am so blessed that I wanted to cry from happiness. Nothing could make me feel assured more than this.

I tried reaching him. My hands eagerly want to touch him. As I try to reach him; he smiled back at me and took my hand. I can feel his warm hands even though my hands are already cold. Yes I know I am dying. But this made me feel comfortable while holding his hands tight. I then tried my best to look at him too. As far as I can withstand my life he grabs me in his arms and looked at me closely while half of my body remains on the ground. I know what he wants to do and I’m very happy that he’s granting my last wish.