Why me!

Bloody Tears..

+ Payton's P.O.V +

When i wake up, my sheets are bloody red.

I scream the loudest I can.. . My mami runs in the room and see's the blood, and runs over too me.

Are you okay? Are you okay? She repeated, touching me too see if I'm still leaking..

Mom i want to go to the hospital i sobbed.. My mom wraps a towel around me, and we leave out the front door.

As we get to the hospital i see alot of injured people and my mom runs to the lady behind the desk, and says we need an doctor immediately. She asks if im pregnant, my mom answers for me, nooo. She says, then she looks back at me.. No my baby is not.. Is she on her period the lady asks? Noooo!! My mom yells. The lady speaks into a walkie talkie and a person with an wheelchair comes over and scoops me in it.. They tell my mom to wait in the waiting room, and she has a breakdown.

As i was in the room, they numbed me.. The doctor asked me if i wanted to keep it..

I looked at him with a shocked face, like what?! He said do you want to keep it, he put his gloves on and got this sharp silver thing that looked like scissors. I guess thats a no.. He opened my legs, its not gonna hurt a bit.. but i closed them no, no. I closed my legs.. I sat up and kicked the tools he was using.. Its not gonna hurt he said. Why do i need to get a abortion.. I asked

Because if you have this baby its gonna be mentally challenged. You are under weight for your age. Have you been taking pills or anything? Because we see unusual stuff in your system? He asks.. Yes i say. Well thats not good for you and the baby.. I start to sweat, and my head is hot, and i get a heavy cough.. I need to run a blood test, the doctor says.. He gives me a needle, and then walks out with it.. My mom comes in and she see's the tools.. What is this? She looks at me. What is this? She yells?? Mom.. I say quietly.

What is this? She says, she smacks me.. Your making the same mistakes i did... I was at a clinic once, i saw these tools.. I known i should've aborted you!! Now your having a child! You were about to go to College!!! Why mess up!! She yells.. Who said i was keeping it? I yell, she smacks me.. The doctor comes in.. Whoa whoa, thats not good for the baby.. He says, No me importa acerca de este bebé o su.. ( i don't care about this baby or her ) she yells.. She walks out the room.. I start too cry. The doctor comes over and rubs my shoulder.. I have news for you, he says.. Is it bad.. I ask, He nods..

You have Chlamydia.. What ? I scream? How?? No! Not me!! I scream. Its okay.. Its curable, thank God you came when it just got in your system.. We have medicine, to cure it in least than a month. He says.. I wipe my tears.. Will the baby get it? I ask.. He might have hearing problems or seeing, or heart problems we don't know, but the medicine will prevent it 92% of it from happening. He explains.

Okay, i'll give you time to recover, or call who you need.. He says, then he walks out.. I'm not telling anybody.. I say too myself.

*calls my mom*

Mom are you gonna sign me out? Tomorrow

Sí.. She says

Beeeeeep..

She's really angry.

I put the phone down.. And just look at my stomach.. What am i gonna do with a mentally retarded baby? Im mentally retarded myself.. I look in the mirror at my stomach.. I'm fat. I pinch my thighs and stomach.. *my phone rings*

You need to call your babydaddy and tell him you need a place, i have a surprise for you and your bebe when you get home.. - My mom

She hangs up.

Whats life?

*Calls Avery*

Hey.. Avery..? - Me

What..? Its 3o'clock in the morning.. - Avery

Yes, baby, Yes.. More!! - Girl in background..

Can you put me on speaker.. Don't what you holding your phone while your doing something important. - Me

Umm ok - Avery

You should get checked.. I have Chlamydia.. And your the only one i lost my v-card too and she should get checked too. - Me

You bitch!! - Avery

Ewww, You motherfucker!! You gave me a STD!! - girl in bg *door slams*

Im a bitch!? You gave it too me! - Me

Bye.. _ Avery

*hangs up*

~ tomorrow evening

*My mom shakes me roughly*

Get up.. Oh and by the way, you can call me Lily instead of Mom.

She says , my mouth drops..

She walks out.. I get dressed, and walk out..

Were in the car and its just an silence. She has the spanish station on in the car. She hums it...

Once we get around the corner, i couldn't wait to get home, to get something too eat!!

We got out the car.. My mom asked me if i was hungry.. I said hell yeah, she didn't say anything after that.. Once she opened the door, i saw all my stuff packed she faced me and said.. We'll go to your babydaddy's house.. She pushed my bags too me.. She pushed everything out the house including me.. She looked out the window and waved me on.. I cried, my eyes out.. She's all i had. I walk down the street with all these bags and suitcases on me.. I walk to Avery house.. And he's waiting on the step..

Hey bae, i try to talk without crying, he looks at me then my stomach.. So who's is it? He asks.. Watchu mean?? I only been with you!!! I scream.. He comes to me, and puts his hand around my neck, look don't be screaming in my hood. Oh ard? He says.. Okayyy i say.. So your just gonna leave me stranded with your kid? I yell. His mom looks through the window.. Get the hell off my step with that drama, you hoodrat. She yells, Your son is a hoodrat!! I yell.. He pushes me, don't be talking to my mom like that!! Gtf outta here! He says.. I walk down the street..

Its getting dark, and i have nowhere to go.. My parents are rich, idk why my mom wont accept me.. I walk down to the city, i see alot of homeless people, and prostitutes. They ask me if im one of them.. I look at them crazy and keep walking..

I see a crackhouse. And decided to stay there. They let me stay.. I told this lady my story, and she said she been through the same thing.. She told me to take this and smoke it and all my worries will go away..

She handed it too me..