Why me!

Payton Pleads

As i get up to start my day.. I look over and sew that Carlos isn't by my side.

I get upset. Why am I here? I don't deserve this! I know i'm dying slowly.. God gave me that baby for a reason, and i upset him.

I know i'm dying. But i don't want too die. I want to get clean.

As i wipe my face, and get up.. I see these people doing cocaine, and i ask myself do i want to continue, or go to Rodger house.

I walk out the house and head over to Rodger house.

As i walk through the city, people give me stares. I feel so uncomfortable. I put my hoodie on and suffocate myself in it.

I walk quickly.. When i get to his house. Someone snatches me and we go to the side of the condo's. What are you doing here? Rodger asks.. I'm here.. I want help! I say.. Seriously? He asks.. Yes, i love you and i always did. I say.. *he tries to kiss me* Nooo *i push his head back* I thought you loved me? He says... Noo, i can't.. I say.. He tries to kiss me again.. Noo i cant, I yell. I have Chlamydia. I say sadly.. I got it from Avery. And our baby was born with birth effects. I whisper. Where is he? He asks.. This lady, took him.. I put him in the trash. *i put my head down* Whaaat? He says.. *he puts his head in his hands* I couldn't handle him! I yell.. I walk away.. No don't leave. Why did you come here? He asks.. I love you.. I say.. Im dirty.. Im done.. Jesus wants me! He wants me now! I scream. No, you cant. You have to be strong! He says. I want to get help. But i might die anyway.. I say. He lets my arm go.. I walk away.

I walk back home. Well crackhouse.

My phone rings. I look at my self like what, whats ringing.

I find my phone, and its Ryan.. Calling me.

I answer it.

She answers heavily, Where are you she asks.. On the streets..

I can help you!! She yells.. Its too late. I say

~ Later on

As i get to the corner, i see an prostitute. Hey, you wanna make some money! She says..

Yeah sure.. I say.. Ite c'mon..

She calls someone and this big black tahoe, comes and scoops. They through me in.. They ask me if i have std's i said uhhh, they interrupted me and said okay anyway. I look around and see big muscular people everywhere. They take me to this big house, and the man who bosses everybody around, takes me upstairs. So what happened to you? He asks.. Whats your name? I say.. Pimp. He says then smirk. I try to walk out, but he pulls me. Baby, where you going? He says. You work for me! He says.. Squeezing my arm really hard.

Do you understand? He says.. Yes i say. He pushes me. Go freshen up.. He points to the bathroom. Whats that for? I ask.. He pushes me in there. Look this is how you clean! He yells. Take your clothes off, he says.. I hesitate. He takes my clothes off for me. He runs the tub water, and pushes me in there. Its hot. I say. He rubs me in my private places.. He puts soap on me, and puts conditioner in my hair. These three girls come in the bathroom and wash me up and wash my hair. They take me out and wraps a towel around me. They take me into the mans room. Goodbye *he snaps*, they leave.. I'm cold *i start to shiver*

Come sit down.. He says. I go and sit down on the bed.. I see stains everywhere, do you ever change your sheets? I ask.. Never ask me questions.. He says.. So why am i here? I yell.. He backhand me. Owwww! I scream!! Why did you do that! I say *holding my cheek*

He punches me.. I fall to the ground. Owww! I scream. I hold my nose. I'm sorry. I yell. What do you want me too do! Whatever i say! He says. He picks me up.. Call me daddy! He yells.. I cover my face.. He holds his hand up.. Call me daddy! Now, he yells.. Daddy, im sorry! I yell. He throws me on the bed. He takes the towel off of me. Noo! I say!! Shutup, he says.. He pulls me closer to him. I push my self up, closer to the headboard. He grabs my ankles and pull me to him.. I try to kick, but he has an mean hold on me. He kisses my ankle all the way to my thigh.

He gets an condom out the dresser. He puts it on, and he rubs my clit. Then sticks it in me, forcefully, and hard. I scream. He gets on top of me. I wrap him with my legs. He strokes me, and my eyes roll back.. He runs his fingers through my hair. Baby your tight. He keeps going. I look at his back, in disguise. I hate him, I hate me. He stops, and rolls me over.. Im on top of him, and he tells me to do the work now. I look at him.. Go he yells.. I bounce, on top of him. He bounces me back up everytime i come back down. He looks me in my eyes. He pulls my hair and brings me down.. I grind on him.. He kisses my neck. He goes in and out of me while he holds my head down. I moan loudly, and alot. He grabs my boobs. He pushes me off of him. And he looks at me.. Look at you.. Your nasty.. Go clean your self up. I go to the bathroom, and wash up again.. He tells me to get some clothes from the closet.. I put them on..... I can barely fit this. I say. Thats the point he yells. He smokes his cigar.. Go to your room. He yells.. These girls out the door, walks me to my room. It was huge. I stare in amazement. They close the door behind me.

I sit down on the bouncy bed.. I look around. Then i daydream. His muscles, on my arms. Leaving me bruises on my neck, and hickies on my back, and legs, and other places. The way he smokes his cigar, and the tattoo's on his left arm. He has cut eyebrows. He's lightskin, he has curly hair. *i start to rub myself* , ummm hello.. Someone says

I jump... What? I yell.. C'mon its time for work. What? I say.. Its 3AM.

Thats when all the horny pervs are out. She says

I'm just a teen.. I say... C'mon she yells.

We walk down the hallway, I see the lightskin boy again, and he smacks my butt when i walk pass.. The girl tells him to leave me alone. I just want her to get comfortable. He says while laughing. He smokes his cigar and goes back in his room.

We walk outside. Its cold. I need a coat! I have an bad immune system.. I say

This car, comes pass us. And they ask for me.. What? I yell.. The girl tells me i'll be fine. She pushes me in the car.. The man doesnt say anything to me. He touches my boobs.

I can get fired for this, but i had to my wife sucks.. What? I say.. Im a police.. He says

Ummm.. I say.. What are you talking about? I say.. I try to open the door, but he locks the door. We get to an alley.. An dark one. He stops the car.. So what? I ask.

Do your job! He yells. He unzippens his pants.. I scream! He grabs the back of my neck and shoves his dick in my mouth. He makes me deepthroat him. He brings my head up when he wants and i couldnt breathe, i kicked and smacked his thighs and everything i scratch his face, and he kept going. He let my head go, and i gasped for air.. He told me to play with his balls.. I licked his balls, and he played with my pussy.. He lifted me up and put me on his dick.. It hurted. I squeezed his shoulders.. He went fast. I tried to stop him, but he kept threatening me. I kept going..

He gave me 50$, and left me in the alley. I was alone.. And cold.. I found my way back to the street.. And i stayed there, and fell asleep.

Someone touched my shoulders, and shook me.. Wake up!! They yelled

I woke up and it was....