Going Too Far

Part 17

It was only Wednesday and I wanted the week to be over with. The day dragged by as my 'friends' ignored me. Yesterday was just like Monday, Maria and Jessie totally ignored me and Liz. They followed Trinity like lost puppies, they glared at me every chance they got, and gave us the cold shoulder. 

By the end of the day I was worn out, Maria and Jessie continued to give me and Liz the cold shoulder. Trinity just loved the fact that two of my best friends ditched me, and tried to get Liz to ditch me. But Liz went all crazy on her; it was funny to see Trinity be humiliated at lunch when Liz shouted she wouldn't eat with a bitch like her.  

English surprisingly became my favorite class. Because of what happened on Monday people began to open up a little more. Yesterday we only had one topic which was Drugs. Justin the class druggie admitted he sold weed here in school, even to some teachers. Mrs. Teller wasn't happy about it, you could tell, but because the agreement that you wouldn't judge was at play she couldn't say anything spiteful about his druggie ways. The class again asked questions like 'How did you become addicted' 'Why at school?' 'Who were the teachers?' Ect. He told us how he was trying to stop but couldn't find a way out. 

I guess because I said something positive and supporting Monday people looked at me as if I was the only one who could talk sense into him. I knew Mrs. Teller was expecting me to give the most advice because of our talk. So I participated, I gave my two cents and could only hope that he would take what I told him, and change his life around.  

Writing in the journal helped a lot. I decided to start from the beginning, tell the journal all my secrets. I began with how I felt betrayed by Trinity, how close we were until High school started how she craved for attention.  

Today was my third day writing in my journal, my last entry was how Trinity slowly started to change. Today I wrote about how I felt about Trinity's change, and told the journal of Trinity's first secret. Getting drunk at a party and sleeping with a senior. Granted Trinity felt guilty at first, but then kept going to parties and sleeping around with other seniors from other schools. She was only a freshman. 

Well secret number three. No not my secret... at least not yet. I have to tell you from the beginning, no short cuts. Ok the secret for today, Trinity lied about losing her V card. It wasn't with Jake or when she was in love. It was when she was drunk at a party her freshman year. Yup that's right, it was at a party the town over was throwing. She got drunk off her ass and this senior from another school kinda took advantage and slept with her. Can you believe it? No well you kinda have to since it's the truth. 

His name was Darren Warner. Yes the big shot quarterback from Harver High school, our school rivals. It makes me sick since he uses girls. He used my sister. I felt bad for her at first; I was supposed to watch out for her. But she snuck out and went to the party, got drunk for the first time and slept with him. Imagine my shock when she came home the next morning looking like trash. Her dress stunk of beer; her hair was a mess, her eyes red and swollen from crying. She looked a mess.  

When she came home I knew she didn't want to talk about it so I sent her to the bathroom to get cleaned up before our brother woke up. Our parents were away for the weekend, they always go places together alone.  

When she came out she wouldn't talk to me about it, and I didn't ask her. If she wanted to tell me then she would when she wanted. Turns out I had to wait until that night before she broke down and told me. She wasn't disturbed by it; she said how she felt, and how she wanted to do it again. No remorse over what she did no guilt.  

I expressed my disgust and that's when things between us changed. We had this huge fight, a screaming match. I still remember it to this day, the things she said, and the things I said. It hurts me to remember, to see how much she's changed.