Going Too Far

Part 36

I stared at the school building behind the car window, my breath fogging up the glass a little. It was Friday. I felt chills crawl up my spin, I can't believe I'm going to do this. The week was a long one, one that I want to forget as soon as possible. 

I went home the following day after I woke up. My parents got strict instructions not to leave anything lying around that I could harm myself with. I wasn't allowed to be left alone or unsupervised. I had medication that would help me sleep and my parents made sure they gave me the exact amount. My life felt like a living hell. 

They stuck to the doctors' orders. They removed and locked away all knives, razors, and anything sharp. They removed my door from my room so that way they can check up on me at night. And they wouldn't leave me alone in a room. Either they were watching me or they made James hang around me. And James didn't like that. He was still freaked out over the whole thing. 

They removed the lock from the bathroom that way they can walk in at any time, even if I'm in the shower and what not. It was unbearable. I wasn't allowed to have any visitors, and only a few phone calls a day.  

Monday my parents went and talked to the principle about Trinity. She was suspended until the second week of January. Not that our parents cared much about that. They had other plans for Trinity. She left the day I woke up to my aunt's house, which only lives two towns over. She enrolled at school the day I got to go home. When I got home most of her stuff was gone, all her clothes, most of her books.  

I knew it was partly my fault that she left; the doctor didn't want us in the same building. And I couldn't help but feel guilty over that. Because from what I was told everyone hated her at the moment. And for some reason that didn't settle well in my stomach. Especially since Jake kept adding fuel to the fire.  

Marc would tell me how messed up he was from the news. Drinking and ranting on how it couldn't be his and how he didn't want anything to do with the baby. Yes Trinity is a b_tch. But she doesn't deserve that. No women does. It wasn't her fault she got pregnant, it takes two. No matter how pissed off she made me, or how much she caused me pain my heart went out to her. For her and for the baby. The way things were going made me remember my dream the one before I woke up. And I didn't want things to be like that... 

I shook myself out of my thoughts as I heard a bell ring. I sighed and rested my head on the window.  

It was now time for the assembly. Mom wouldn't let me go a full day, only for the assembly. Which I though was stupid, but her rules and all that.  

"Are you ready?" She asked gathering her purse. I sighed again and nodded meekly. 

I knew I wanted this, but now that I was here... I started second guessing myself. I left the warm car and hurried towards the building to get out of the snow. Opening the doors I let myself in and looked around the empty hallway, everyone must be at the assembly already. I hurried to the auditorium my heart picking up pace as I neared the doors to backstage. Ms. Scott told me to meet her on stage left so I hurried along and entered the room quietly as the principle stood at the podium telling the fellow classmates what we were doing. 

I saw Liz standing on the side looking around nervously, but when she saw me she brightened. She hurried over to me and hugged me tightly not letting go. 

"Don't ever do that to me again. I want to punch you, then hug you and maybe even beat you up for what you did!" She ranted pulling back as I saw her eyes fill with tears.  

I felt my own tear up, this was the first time I have seen her since my accident. I sniffed and nodded. 

"Have you any idea what I've been going through? To go to your house and see you... see you like that!" She was full on crying now; if she didn't stop people would hear her. I gently took her out the side door.