3am thoughts

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i lay here listening to my favorite songs from simpler times and my mind goes to you

i've told myself that i'm over you, that the spark is gone

but i'm lying to myself. i can't get over you. i don't know why.

i just want to be near you, to be acknowledged by you

and ever since you've stopped paying attention to me, i feel like a neglected child

i feel so lonely and empty and it fucking hurts

it hurts that you don't love me the way i love you

and i should stop trying, but i can't.

i'll just live with constant heartbreak and i hope you're happy

seeing sadness in my eyes, if you still even look at me.