3am thoughts

xxl

what if i just killed myself.
i think it would just make everything easier for everyone.

no more having to worry about my education, mom and dad.

no more having to have lulling conversations late at night because i feel alone and need someone to talk to, friends.

and he wouldn't have to worry about breaking my heart
mostly because it's already broken by the pain and cruelty of the world.

and my problem of suffering day in and day out would finally come to an end. my hands would no longer shake from imperfection in every detail, no longer feeling everything all at once that it becomes so overwhelming to the point that it's paralyzing, and i'd no longer be a burden on the ones i love and care for.