Curtain Call

Chapter Seven

sunday november 9
dear delilah,
well. your sis is pregnant. wow. didn't expect that. i mean yeah she's been super moody and stuff and suspicious but PREGNANT? wow. i wonder if she'll get an abortion. oh your parents would DISOWN her if she got an abortion. i actually think your parents might disown her now. I'm scared for you del. good luck with this.

well nothing happened this week. there was church. it sucked. mom and dad have been super suspicious of me recently... probably since now I've come to terms with the fact that i'm a fucking lesbian and theres nothing i can do about it and i have a major crush on my best friend. fml.
so church. i walk in. i sit down. i blankly stare in front of me. theres this weird bald guy in front of me with lots of dandruff and its gross. but at the same time also interesting. so i quietly whistle along to whatever prayer we are on and the little flakes of dandruff start to fall off his head. it was... ew. so i pretend to listen to the priest and pretend that what he's talking about isn't making me feel worse by the second.

maggie got fired. not from my parents but like from her company. some brat told their parents maggie had given them drugs. maggie wouldn't do that. but i don't have anyone to talk to anymore. i was supposed to see her last week but from everything that happened i couldn't. so i figured id go today but nope she's gone.
and so now you ask why i still write in this journal. and i say because i no longer have anyone to talk to about stuff and i have to let it out somehow so this is how i do it. I've become helpless and pathetic just because I'm lesbian. i need to find some sort of a diet to fix this.

i ended up doing that bio project with meghan. she's still really cute and nice but i don't like her like that anymore. we worked well together although the project was dissecting starfish.
harry is being weird around me still. probably still thinks I'm a lesbian. yay. ugh i need to be reincarnated to an easier life.

jade

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Dear Jade,

I haven't talked to the real you in forever. Everyone's gossiping about us and what happened. A lot of people have asked me what happened. They all want drama to pass around. Without it they're bored with the lives that they have. I didn't give them any. I said that we had a dare. We wanted to see how long we could be without on another. Only the drunk teenagers at the party knew that we kissed. But only we knew what actually happened in that closet.

Marie has been acting so strangely lately. I never thought anything of it, mostly because I don't see her as much as I have been. She's been craving a lot of chocolate. She now has a hidden stash in our room since mom told her she needed to stop eating it. She is getting fatter than before.

Finally we all went to the doctor to see if something was wrong and it turns out there was. The doctor finished the check up with Maria and with a grim face, asked mom to go in the room with him. Maria kept looking longingly at the pumpkin chocolates that were set out on the counter for children done with their checks ups. Finally we heard a scream from the room and the doctor asked Maria and I to enter.

It was a horrible scene.

Mom was on the ground crying. Her makeup running down her face. A nurse was trying to calm her down and finally led her out of the room.

The doctor sighed and turned to Maria and I.

"Well it's not good news or bad news," said the doctor.

"Then what is wrong with me?!?!?"

"Well, your pregnant. Your mother didn't quite like this idea as you can see."

Maria's face went white and her mouth was stuck open. I tried to look shocked but inside I was laughing at her. I knew something big like this was going to happen. Now the closet fiasco seems so small compared to this.

The ride home was very awkward. Mom and Maria wouldn't look at each other or speak. Mom kept giving out little hiccups of sobs.

I knew they wouldn't let her have an abortion. They didn't like the though of that. My parents wouldn't let anyone kill a human being, but they would probably kick her out when the baby comes. I felt bad for Maria so I worked extra hard to be nice to her. Even though she deserves what happened, it is sad. And she hasn't been a totally horrible sister.

I'm actually excited to be an aunt and visit her future child.

The best sister (and aunt) ever,

Delilah