On My Bed Of Roses.

Chapter 1"Love in New Jersey" Part 4 "They call it living in sin"

After one of the best weekends of my life, I returned to California. Simon had not heard anything about my outs and about with Jon Bon Jovi, and I think nobody heard anything at all.

That day I came back home very exhausted, so I showered and went straight to bed. It was very late at night, and fell asleep immediately. When I woke up the next morning , I fixed breakfast for myself , and there was the newspaper with a magazine lying on the table.Each morning, I used to read the latest gossip about celebrities in Hollywood. I froze when I saw what picture was on the cover. A picture of Jon and I in New Jersey where we are cuddling and holding each other hands. I remember exactly the day and the time, but what I did not remember was seeing anyone taking the damn picture. Damn paparazzi. At that moment, the phone rang and I ran to the living room to pick it up.

"Hi," I said. "What the hell do these pictures mean?" - Asked Simon over the phone.He sounded really mad.

My blood froze for a minute and i was unable to breathe. I tried to remain calm before I could speak.

- "Hon ... I can explain that," I said trying to hide my shaky voice.

I tried my best not to sound nervous, and I managed it quite well.

"I hope so," he said" He said with his British accent.

I could hear the anger in his voice.

"It's part of a video footage, honey.It's the new Bon Jovi video for MTV.I was featured on that video with other supermodels "

Simon remained silent for a second, maybe he was proving himself if I was lying or not. After a few moments of agonizing silence, he spoke:

"Oh,I'm so sorry sweetheart ... sorry that I mistrust you," he said in a fancy tone with his British accent, "but I ... I...mean...It says something else in the magazine article." he stated nervously.

"what the article says it's all horseshit, honey," I said laughing but feeling anger.

"OK sorry".

"No problem, hon . When are you coming back? "I asked.

"Only a few more days on the set , and I'm there,sweetheart."

"Well, see you soon," I said - "goodbye".

"Goodbye, Steph," he said - "I love you"

But I hung up without answering. I sipped my cup of coffee, and the phone rang again. I sighed heavily and ran to pick it up again.

"Hi," I said.

"Hey baby," said Jon.

A big smile came instantly on my face when I heard his soft sweet voice.I melted each time he said "Baby" to me.

"how are you?"

"Well, and you?" - I asked.

"Great, I have some great news" he said.

"What's up?"

" I told you that David was into acting , and plays huh?

"yeah, you already did.And? what's up?

Well, David's friend is writing a movie about a guy in a band like me and my band and thinks is the perfect idea to promote our album" New Jersey".What's more is that he saw us and wants us to be the stars on that movie.

"What? are you kidding me Jon? When did he see us?"I asked shocked and confused.

"The pictures of the "Stars" magazine, by the way did you see them? We look so effin hot together" Jon said laughing.

I laughed loud with him over the phone . - "Yeah yeah, I saw them ... Simon saw them too and he was really mad .but who cares? He's an actor too and now he's got to get to make out with a Canadian actress. Okay, so ... a movie,huh? "I said still in shock.

"Yes, do you accept to take part in this movie with me?" He asked.

"Hell yeah ,totally " I answered excited.

"Well, so that's the way it roll baby. I like it" Jon said and I could hear him smiling over the phone - "Come to New Jersey in two days and let's get fucking signed."

"Okay, I'll be there,Jon" I said gladly.

"Bye baby".

"Goodbye".

I hung up and stood for a minute with my hand still shaking and holding the phone. I thought that would be the perfect excuse to spend more time with Jon, and and run away from my boring marriage with Simon.Things have turned so cold between us lately.We hardly saw each other lately.Not even as a family. Two days after receiving the call from Jon, I took the trip to New Jersey. Jon was waiting for me at the airport in NYC. He gave me a big hug and kissed me as soon as I ran to his arms. We signed the contract, and at night we went out with Doc Mc Ghee, the manager of Bon Jovi. We went to a local bar called the Stone Pony. Doc was a person with a great sense of humor, and I laughed with Jon and him the whole night. Jon and I danced slow and had a couple of drinks.But not so seriously drunk as Richie was at the end of the night. Most of the time we were cuddling and making out. I did not mind about the people who were around us watching, Doc sat drinking in the bar with the rest of the guys in the band. I kissed Jon until we both were running out of breath. The next day I returned to California, to check my son,Christopher and to let Simon know about the movie I would be in. I got home and found Simon sitting on the couch.He had a big expression of anger and was holding a glass of whiskey in his hand.

"Hello Simon," I said a little bit scared.

He looked weird.His frown was still there and his eyes were enraged.

"Why did you do that to me Steph?" He asked. His voice was almost a whisper, and I could feel the pain in his voice.

"What's wrong, honey?" I asked nervously.

He lifted the magazine that was on the couch next to him ... and this new magazine had a large picture of Jon and I making out on the cover. I was petrified . The damn picture showed a passionate kiss between us, and had the word "Romance in Rock n Roll" in huge ass red print.

"Simon" I said.

My voice was shaking now. I was very nervous. I did not know what the hell to say.

"You are a liar '' he yelled enraged.

"It all happened after the fucking video. I don't know , we talked and saw each other again...Hon, I don't know..I did not mean to cheat on you but...He smiled at me an my fucking world turned upside down" i admitted with tears flowing down my face.

"... You're a damn liar!" He yelled even louder .

I really freaked out. I had never seen Simon so mad and out of control.

"Simon ... I'm so sorry.I'm so confused?" I said bawling - "all these years I have loved you so much you were the only one man in my life but I met Jon and I'm so fucking confused", 'I explained.

"You're a damn liar," he yelled over again.

Then he took a glass vase close to the the sofa, and slammed it against the wall. Water was splashed all over, flowers and pieces of broken glass went everywhere as the vase was smashed with Simon's breakdown. I shuddered and let out a loud cry. I was so scared and freaked out. Simon started to smash against the wall and floor every single item of our fancy living room.Even his favorite fine collection of vintage ceramic elephants.

"Simon" I cried .- "STOP!"

Then he stopped.

"I want a divorce," he said.

I nodded with tears on my face.

"As soon as possible,please" he demanded.

He turned around , and went to his room. While we slept in separate rooms that night, I was unable to sleep.Instead, I leaned against the wall, and dropped, Weeping uncontrollably. I put my hands on my face, and continued my loud cry for a while. Then, in that moment of anguish ... I made a tough permanent decision.

"I'm moving out to New Jersey" I whispered to myself.