On My Bed Of Roses.

Part 5 "And now you're swimming for the Jersey Shore"

I ran to my room, and took the first suitcase I saw. I filled it with clothes, and left.

I got into my car and started driving to LAX. I broke down in tears. I really loved Jon, I was in love with him even if I've just met him briefly... but I felt so bad for Simon.I was so mean and we did not deserve to break up that way after 2 years of marriage. We had everything we wanted, even a gorgeous baby boy. He has always been a good husband to me.Why did I do this to him?.

Tears were streaming down my face, and I saw everything blurry while driving on the freeway.Radio was tuning the song "The Price of Love" by Bad English and I was still with the flow. I arrived safely at the airport despite feeling so emotionally exhausted.

When I reached the platform , the first thing I did was to pick a a pay phone  and dial Jon's number. I dialed his number and waited for Jon to pick up. Two long rings and he did:

"Hello?" - He said.

"Hey Jon, It's me ... Steph"

"Hey baby, what the fuck? are you okay?" - He asked me as he first noticed I was crying over the phone.

"Not at all. In the Stone Pony, some stupid idiot was shooting pictures of us ... Simon saw them, got upset and demanded divorce."

"Oh, I'm so sorry to hear this baby" He said and the paused. There was a silence.

"Seriously, I'm sorry" Jon said with his soft sweet voice.

"I'm moving to to New Jersey, Jon.Right now" I said.

"Are you fucking serious, babe? there was excitement in his voice.

"Yes. I'm serious Jon.I'm waiting to board my flight"

"Well, I'll be waiting for you."

"See you soon,I'll call you when I land to New York" I said.

"See ya baby," he said.

And I hung up.

I went to pick up my flight tickets, and was more than glad to know the next flight will take off in a couple of minutes.

I waited, waited and waited until it was time for boarding. Once on the plane,I wept for a while until I got exhausted and fell asleep.

A friendly stewardess woke me up. I felt my eyes burning and my body ached.

Jon was waiting for me in JFK airport, and ran into his arms as soon as I saw him. He wrapped me in a warm hug, and relief came over me. I did not feel nothing more than relief in his arms.

"Hey baby," I could feel someone touching my shoulder,turned around and it was him talking to me with his sweet soft voice.

I kissed him, and this time I did not care anymore about who could be watching. The good part of all this is that we no longer had to hide our love affair.No more.

"Hey,cutie pie" I said relieved looking at his deep blue eyes.

"Here I am, baby,finally" He said. He rubbed his hand up and down my back, and he kissed my forehead softly. "Everything's going to be okay, baby"

"Jon, I'm never gonna leave you.Ever. I'm gonna stay with you forever. I'll go wherever you and the guys go on tour" I said staring at his eyes and he felt shocked.

He shook his head smiling. I melted.Then he got close to kiss my lips and head.

"that's crazy, baby"he whispered

"Why?" -I asked frowning.

"We got to make a movie first, and then I have a pretty long ass tour to complete for the rest of the year," he sighed.

"I'll join you, I don't give a shit," I said without hesitation.

"Love in New Jersey" was the name of the movie where Jon and I were featured as the main stars ... It's the story of a college girl,Suzanne Halley. One night she and her friend attend a concert where the local Jersey band, Asbury Lane performs in front of all students . Jon, the lead singer of this band, calls Suzanne (Susie) onstage to dedicate a song to her that night. "Born to Be My Baby". She follows him after the concert, and then a passionate, forbidden romance between them is triggered.

Suzanne's parents hated Jon because he was just a poor town boy  who worked as a car mechanic helper  during the day and performed with his band  at night, mostly in all the Jersey local bars and night clubs.

Suzanne was a rich girl and her parents did not want to hang out with a guy like Jon that only works as a car service guy ."We don't want to see you ever again with that dirty Jersey dog " Susie's mom bitched.

Suzanne and Jon kept their love affair secretly, until one night they decided to stay at Susie's house while her parents were absent ... in the midst of passion,they both make love until Susie's parents show up, and heaven breaks loose.They decide to transfer College for Susie in California so Jon could no longer see her.Ever again.

"I'll be there for you" Jon swore, crying desperately, and suffering worse than Romeo.

This short sad movie is all, about their passionate romance between them, their secret meetings on the Jersey shore , the band performing local gigs ... and Jon had the pleasure to drive a Harley Motorcycle all along the Jersey shore taking Susie (my character) back home after seeing each other.

When we recorded "Love in New Jersey", I was amazed with Jon's acting skills and professionalism. He was extremely demanding in all the aspects, timely mannered and efficient. If he was not fully convinced with a scene, he asked for repetition over and over again.

But best of all , his kisses were to die for. He kissed me the same way he did in real life.Fiction was not so different.

His kisses turned even more intense in each scene and in slow motion that I could enjoy the warmth of his mouth and feel his breathing on my face.That totally drove me crazy and took my breath away. I skipped a couple of heartbeats during those scenes with Jon. Each time the director yelled "Stop!", We continued our kissing and cuddling.

It was the hardest part of filming with Jon, knowing it was my boyfriend in real life.

He was a little embarrassed and shy . Jon apologized to the directors with shy manners. Then he returned his eyes on me, smiled and I melted.

One day I asked him how on earth he could be so good at acting , and told me he took some acting lessons at one of the best drama schools in New York. I could say he was was much better than I was and I was surprised at the scene where we had to say our goodbyes. His tears were real, he was not pretending at all.

At the beginning was hard for me to do that scene. At the scene that I had to tell him I was moving to California, I pockered my face like crying and I could hardly get in tears. But when I saw him crying for real, as if he was living it and so inside his character, I broke into tears with him and the scene was perfect.It did not look like fiction at all.

When we were done with our set, the director called us and was very happy with our acting.

"I just got in the character and pictured the situation '' Jon explained to the director" I just thought about living it all with her" he continued pointing at me and smiling .

I could not live without you baby. So I figured it out. " He told me .I utterly melted.

At that moment I loved him more than ever. Jon was the guy I wanted to be with forever and never leave.