Bellarke One Shots

Don't Leave Me

BELLAMY

There was so many things I wanted to do with her. There was so many things that I wanted to tell her. I wanted to tell her about how I fell in love with her and how much I wanted to hug and kiss her. I wanted to tell her how much I appreciated the little things like cooking me my favourite meals or being there for O when she needed a best-friend. I wanted to tell her how much I loved her blonde wavy hair and the way the sun hits it and makes it look all shiny and new. And how the way she smiled could cheer up anyone's day.

I wanted to cuddle with her on my couch and watch cheesy romantic movies, just to make ourselves feel better about our relationship. I just wanted to tell her how much I loved her and how much I cared about her.

Flashback

"Why won't you just listen to me?!"

"Because everything you ever said to me was a lie Bellamy! You don't care about me! You don't bother to notice all the little things I do for you. You just don't care."

"But I do care Clarke. Can't you see that."

"No I can't see anything because it's not there. You're a pathetic liar and I don't need you in my life anymore."

"Please don't do this princess." I was on my knees begging her for forgiveness.

"I can't go through my life with someone I can't trust. I can't live a normal life while worrying if my boyfriend is gonna cheat on me. I can't do that. I can't do this." She started to tear up. I started to walk closer to her to comfort her but she backed up.

"Stay away from me." She pointed a finger at me.

"What...why?" I was so confused.

"I said stay away from me you monster." That hit me directly in the heart. She thought I was a monster.

"What the fuck is wrong with you?!"

"You happened to me! You ruined my life! You think you can just prance into my life and expect me to be okay with the fact you cheated on me? I should be the one asking; what the fuck is wrong with you?"

That was it. I was never getting her back. She was gone and I just didn't get to her in enough time. I had screwed up big time and there was no way in hell she was ever gonna forgive me. I always found a way to screw things up and she knew it. It finally went too far and she was done with it.

"Look I'm sorry. I didn't mean to-"

"Sorry doesn't do anything! It doesn't do shit Bellamy!" She backed up even farther. "Get out."

I looked at her puzzled. "This is my house, you get out."

"Fine." She pushed past me and grabbed her purse from on my table. She walked briskly to the front door while whipping multiple tears from her eyes. She shoved on her shoes and put on her coat aggressively. She took one look at me before muttering goodbye.

"Goodbye Bellamy." And with that she slammed the door shut behind her.

That was it, she was gone. And this time it was for good.

I was angry. I started to throw around multiple things like plates, bowls, glasses and chairs. I broke multiple things. I threw my arms on the table and brushed everything on the ground.

I noticed a picture frame on the ground and I picked it up. I turned it over and my eyes were greeted to a very nice picture of the both of us on the beach.

I fell to the ground and started to cry.

Why did I have to screw up so much? Why did I allow such a great person to walk out of my life? Why was I such a douchebag?