bad boy, good lips.✧ shawn mendes

t h i r t y - t h r e e

(( pic of skylar above or on the side ))

little bean;

s h a w n

"hey skylar."

"hi shawn."

the very first time i met skylar i never thought we would ever be in this situation. like ever.

i thought i wouldn't be in this situation till i was at least 25 or something. not freaking 17.

(( i think he was 16 in the beginning of this story but we are just going to roll with it. he's 17 now in the book ))

when i was younger i was always taught by my mother that if this situation ever happened i would stick by their side. because like me, they would be scared too.

things changed. i changed. i wasn't the same guy i was back in canada. the guy back in canada would forget what my mom said and just leave the girl to deal with it by herself.

but me here, in los angeles, even if i've been here for only a month or so wouldn't . i'm not the bad boy back in canada that everyone knows me by. and i'm okay with that.

the electric doors opened slowly as me and skylar entered the clinic. you could feel the cold air conditioner on even when i had a sweater.

"what now?" i looked over at skylar who's was wearing leggings and an oversized sweater. very different from what she would usually wear.

"um.. i think i sign in." she slowly said and walked to the front desk. sure enough she needed to.

i looked around the room waiting skylar to finish. there was a bunch of women with babies in their arms. there was also women already pregnant. they all of course way older than me and skylar.

what struck me the most was that there wasn't and dads or future dads. where could they be?

"shawn let's sit down and wait." skylar pulled me away from my thoughts.

"oh yeah." i followed her to a seat in the middle of the clinic.

when we sat down there was just silence. not awkward silence. just comfortable silence.

that was, until a baby stared crying.

the mother desperately tried to make it stop crying. it was obvious that she was a first time mom. must be hard for her since there was no one to help her. after a bit one of the nurses went to help her. the mom looked so relived seeing as her baby stopped crying.

"shawn." skylar tapped my shoulder.

"what's up?" i looked at her. she looked scared. like terrified.

"oh shit.. um what's wrong?" i asked her worried.

"it's just, i don't think i'm ready for all this. i'm scared. like what if i fuck shit up. i am not ready to take care of someone's life when i can barely take care of my own." she said her eyes getting watery.

"skylar you're not alone. i'm here too! i won't leave you. i'm so scared too. but if we have each others backs everything will be okay." i assured her. and i wasn't lying. i truly was going to be there for her and the baby.