bad boy, good lips.✧ shawn mendes

i m p o r t a n t

i honestly am not going to use my fan account anymore (including wattpad).

it's bc the other day in school we were talking about choosing our classes for next year. and than it like hit me, i'm going to to graduate next year. this time next year i'm going to be a senior. and when we were choosing our classes i had no idea what to choose. i just didn't know bc i wasn't paying attention to my future at all.

i honestly don't want to spend my whole teenage years being on my phone worrying about some guys on the internet. yes,  i love cam and shawn and the rest of the guys but i got to start paying attention to my own life not theirs.

just bc i won't be a fan account won't mean i love them any less. i still love them a lot. but i love myself too. and i want to be successful and being on my phone all the time won't help with that. so i was like thinking about this a lot during the week. i already left my insta fan account bc i haven't used it in forever. and now i'm leaving twitter too and this one.

when i was on twitter there was so much drama. SO MUCH. and like i thought to myself "why would i waste my time tweeting when i should be living life in the moment" cheesy but here's the thing, today i saw my cousin who was in a car crash. like it was bad. REAL BAD. witnesses said that it was a fucking miracle that she survived. when she was telling us what exactly happened. she said when the van hit her she looked around and was like omg this is the part where i die now. and that scared her bc she was still young and still had a lot ahead of her.

and i really thought about that. my life can change at any moment. real quick. and i don't think i would be okay knowing i didn't live my life with full potential.  so i know not using a fan account would have anything do do with this. but in my opinion it does. i spent way too much time on social media and mostly on the fan account. and i just have to stop.

yeah i'll have my personals but i hardly even go in those. but by not using my fan accounts i think it's a big step i'm taking. i can finally stop worrying about someone else's life and start paying attention to mine.

i'm really sorry for not being able to finish this and a lot of you loved it. and i am so thankful for that bc i thought i would get zeros reads.

maybe in the future i can finish this fanfic, but right now i have to focus on important things in my life.

summer is not that far away. maybe than i'll be back. and better than ever.

i love you all so much. and i hope you don't hate me for this. maybe one day i'll be a hella bored and have a lot of ideas and you'll get a surprise update. so please don't remove it from your library.

i WILL come back. but for right i have to leave.

i love you all with all my heart. thank you for this fun experience.

-xoxo,
ruby