This Is My Life

6

I awoke Tuesday morning almost forgetting the previous night. There was no way I was going to school today. I didn't know what would be worse though.. showing them that they got to me by not going to school, or going and having to put up with the laughs and stares. That wasn't really different than any other day though. All the videos that were taken that night are probably all over the Internet by now. I can't believe I was so stupid.

I wrapped myself back up in my blanket and decided to stay home. My plan almost worked until my grandmother noticed that my shoes and bag were still at the front door. She barged into my room, pulling open the blinds and the blankets off of me. 

"I don't know what happened last night, but I'm assuming something did and that is why you don't want to go to school, But you are going. Get up before you are late." She thinks that I need to just stand up for myself and get over it when people dont't like me. Easier said than done.

I actually did get up and out the door, but i figured I would skip the school part. 

I found the hidden area I used to always go before my parents passed. My old large maple tree that stood in the middle of the forest. The branches were just right to climb up in. I used to spend hours here. When I was younger I ran away and this is where I went, my mom was the one to find me. She was always good at giving me space when I needed it, but also being there when I needed her the most. I missed both my parents terribly. It was almost two years ago that they were killed, and there murder was never solved. The guilt eats me alive. It was probably me. I had to be all messed up. Even if it wasn't me who killed them, I should've stopped whoever it was. Who are we kidding though it was probably me. Things similar have happened to me before. 

I sat up in my tree consumed by all my thoughts, wishing things were different. That someone would come and take me away form this place, and away from these people.