She Dreamed of Paradise ❈ Suspian

Save the Hero

"I lay alone awake at night
Sorrow fills my eyes
But I'm not strong enough to cry
Despite of my disguise
I'm left with no shoulder
But everybody wants to lean on me.
I guess I'm their soldier.
Well, who's gonna be mine?"

- Save the Hero by Beyoncé.

Once Suzanna went away, Susan chocked back a sob as she crumbled to her knees and eventually the floor, her knees folding into her chest and her arms wrapping around her legs. She felt like it was her fault the fog had come and killed all those innocent people, and she could have done something but she didn't do anything and those people died simply because of her selfishness.

Susan gently hit herself to stop herself from crying but that only made more tears come into her eyes and fall down her cheeks, even looking at herself in the mirror and telling herself she was a coward did nothing but made more tears fall. Her face had turned a shade of red, her eyes were puffy from tears, her hair was sticking to her face from the tears and her clothes were barely covering her body; she looked like a mess, or someone who had just escaped from a murderer.

After half an hour of letting her tears fall, they stopped and Susan could fully contain herself from the tears when a thought came to her; it appeared to her that the men in the high court weren't going to do anything about the fog – so it seemed that she must take matters into her own hands and inspire the men to fight for the end of the fog.

A small smile came onto her lips as she picked herself off the floor, grabbing the nearest dress and pair of shoes in her wardrobe – a long sleeved black laced dress and black leather ballet slippers – and placed her hair in a tight fishtail braid. Before she left her room, she looked at herself and almost didn't recognise her reflection; gone was the crying girl and in her place was a powerful and confident woman.

Taking a deep breath; she left her room and practically marched towards the study where the discussion was still taking place and gone seemingly nowhere since Susan had left. The men gave a slight bow when she arrived, silence falling across the room as she moved into the centre of the room. "Gentlemen, this is war. I am declaring war against Jadis in Ettinsmoor, and that is an order. I have been informed that she is the main mastermind behind this fog which caused the death of many members of the court and will kill many more if we do not fight back. We leave at first light tomorrow morning. Prepare your best warriors and pray to your god that he has mercy on the souls we are about to destroy. The dead will be avenged and the living will be victorious."

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