She Dreamed of Paradise ❈ Suspian

This Is Gospel

"Don't try to sleep through the end of the world
And bury me alive
'Cause I won't give up without a fight
If you love me let me go
If you love me let me go
'Cause these words are knives and often leave scars
The fear of falling apart
And truth be told, I never was yours
The fear, the fear of falling apart."

- This Is Gospel by Panic! at the Disco.

Over the course of the next several days, Emori slowly started warming up to Susan, telling her more and more about herself as the pair walked towards Ettinsmoor. Susan still felt uneasy around her, though. But decided not to mention it since her feeling could always be wrong.

From what Emori had said; she was a scavenger, who made her home anywhere she wanted to after her family disappeared, she taught herself how to defend herself soon after and was as determined as Susan was to destroy the fog.

Even with all those points to prove that Emori was good, Susan's gut feeling still didn't let up with the feeling that she was bad news, no matter how many times she had to tell herself that she was just overreacting. She was determined to find out what was truly going on with Emori, no matter how dark that truth may come to be.

The army set up camp a few miles just outside the capital of Ettinsmoor, and it was decided that the army would have a full nights rest before going any further, however, the whole army was still on edge just because Jadis' spies could be anywhere and if they were found, they'd all be dead in minutes.

Susan didn't sleep that night, every time she closed her eyes, she'd be reminded of all the things that had gone wrong since she'd arrived. She lay awake in her bed until the sun started to rise above the horizon, then she decided to start her day and pretend she slept at all. She changed into new clothes which consisted of a dark shirt and trousers and a leather jacket and leather shoes to match. She took her hair out of the now uncomfortable fishtail braid and placed it into a simple ponytail to keep it out of her face.

Walking out of her tent, she quickly noticed that Caspian and Emori were already awake and were looking over a map and that Caspian was holding a pair of binoculars along with half of the map. She walked up to the pair, and said her good mornings. "What's going on?"

"We've found Jadis' castle, it's just above the line of trees out in front of us so our best guess is that it's a few miles away – perhaps five or ten miles away, we're not sure yet." Emori answered, keeping her gaze fixed upon the map in front of her.

Susan nodded her head, her arms folding across her chest. "Someone's gonna have to go in there," she mused, looking at the map.

"That's the idea; I've volunteered to go if that's okay with you." Emori gave Susan a slight smile before handing her the map and taking the binoculars from Caspian.

"I'll go with you." Susan agreed; keeping her eyes fixed upon the map before rolling it back up. Caspian took hold of Susan's hand but she quickly slipped her hand out of his grip, holding it away from his body. "Don't. If you have any feelings for me, you'll let me go. I have to do this and you, not anybody will stop me." She spat, walking away from Caspian and towards Emori.

"Ready?" Emori asked, an eyebrow rose up at Susan as a small smile spread across her lips.

Susan didn't even answer; she simply nodded her head before she began her long walk towards Jadis' castle, Emori following close behind.

Note

I feel so bad that I keep giving you all really short chapters! You guys really deserve way better but since I have serious writer's block and I really want to finish this story soon, it looks like you'll have to put up with these short chapters. But I suppose it's better than nothing.

I literally wrote the ending with Girls Like Girls playing on my iTunes and I'm so tempted to have Emori have a crush on Susan – I don't know if I'll go with that idea, though. I mean, it's cute but I'm not sure. If you guys want me to put it in, I will!

With love;

Lorna (TakeMeLikeAVitamin)