ANA

four

I'm friends with this girl called Ana

I've started eating less

Hating the person in the mirror

My life has become a mess

chapter four

"Are you going to eat that?" Gemma asked me while she stared at my plate of food. I simply shook my head. "Why not?"

"I'm not hungry."

I was starving. I had only eaten an apple that day and my stomach was begging for food. But I couldn't simply give in. Eating was for the weak ones and I was not weak. 

Miles was sitting with us that day at lunch and he was eating chips. I couldn't help but stare at his food and, as if asking for attention, my stomach growled.

"Are you sure you're not hungry?" Miles asked and I quickly nodded. 

If I kept lying to other people, maybe I would start believing it myself. I only had to control my mind and start eating less. 

"You've been hanging out with that Ana girl a lot." He pointed out and put another chip in his mouth. "Be careful. I've heard stories about her. She is not a good person" I shrugged. 

"Well for your information, she has been very nice to me. She's been helping me."

"With what?"

I ignored his question. If I told Miles I was on a diet, he'd made me stop. He would never understand my problem and he would tell me I was perfect the way I was. He didn't see how wrong he was.

I looked at Ana's table and she was surrounded by people...skinny people. She looked over to me and waved. I waved back and half-smiled. Then one of her friends said something funny and her attention went back to the table. I noticed none of them were eating. 

I turned around and looked at my two friends who had both their mouths full of food. Maybe it would be easier if I just stopped getting along with people who eat a lot and started hanging out with people who cared about their weight. Maybe that way I wouldn't feel so tempted to eat something. I grabbed my tray of food and stood up. 

"Where are you going?" Gemma looked up at me while cleaning her hands with a napkin. 

"I need to talk to my French teacher about a project he made us do." I lied and smiled apologetically. "See you later."

dedicated to plsuhteddies because skinny is an amazing book!