ANA

seven

I'm scared of this girl Ana

I can't get her out of my head

It finally occured to me

that Ana wants me dead.

chapter seven

Ana was driving me crazy. She wasn't nice and friendly anymore and I was a little bit scared of her. She would yell every time she saw me eating an apple.

"Drink water instead." She would tell me with her eyebrows furrowed.

"But you told me I could eat apples."

"I changed my mind." She would cross her arms in front of her chest. "Do you want to get fat again?" I would immediately shake my head and she would take the piece of fruit away from me, throwing it in the bin. After that, she would hand me a bottle of water. "Water doesn't have calories. Apples have tons of them."

She would walk away and I would cry. I had nobody. I needed somebody. 

I didn't know how to get rid of her. I was so tired of listening to her all day long, giving me orders on what I should or should not eat or reminding me how fat I was. But for some reason I also wanted her to stay. She was helping me. 

My mom had started noticing my weight loss which had made me happy because someone had noticed. But my mom didn't seem happy at all. She would get mad at me every time I didn't finish my dinner. She would always make a comment about how I was too skinny. I didn't understand her. How could she say I was too skinny when I still looked like a whale? 

That day I took a ham sandwich for school because my mom had made it for me. At first I thought I would just throw it away or give it to some kid but when I started looking at it I couldn't resist. I took a small bite of it but I immediately regretted it. I started crying and I dropped the sandwich to the floor, hiding my face in my hands. 

After that, I got up and looked for Ana in school. She was nowhere to be found so I went to the restroom and washed my face with cold water trying to get my mind off of it. I started pacing back and forth in the restroom and I started feeling very anxious. Suddenly the door was opened and a girl came inside. She smiled at me and I recognized that smile. She was one of the girls that was always around Ana. She had dark hair and blue eyes and she was as skinny as her. 

"Someone told me you were looking for Ana." She said and I nodded confirming it. "Well, Ana is busy right now. She told me to come meet you. She already knows the terrible thing you did." 

I widened my eyes. She was going to kill me, I was sure of it.

"Don't worry. There's a solution for your problem. I can help you." 

The way she had said that, had remind me of Ana when I had first met her.

She opened the door of a stall and pushed me gently inside. She locked the door behind her and she told me to get down on my knees. I did as I was told and she handed me a toothbrush. 

"Do it." She sounded like a responsible mother telling her kid not to touch the oven. I took it from her and as soon as it hit my throat I started gagging. I tried again and in a few seconds I was throwing up. As soon as it was over, she rubbed my back and told me to get up.

"Don't worry, honey. Everything's going to be fine. One day, you'll be skinny too."

She started walking towards the door of the restroom but before she could grab the handle, I spoke.

"Thank you, ..." I cut myself off when I realized I didn't know her name

"Mia."

"Thank you, Mia"