A Story Of Depression: Life Is Nothing But A NIGHTMARE || Completed ✔️

Part 3: Heaven- The meeting of an "angel"

I was never a happy person. I always feel unloved, abandoned, and that's the worse thing that could happen to me. Because I never expected for this. I felt like there's just some random person getting messed up, and all the desperate stuff got thrown to me. But why was I the target? Why can't it just be someone else? But I wouldn't mind, life is nothing but a nightmare. Sufferings, betrayals, and when somebody has to leave, that's all the experiences I have right now. I'm never an awesome person, I am lame. So dumb, nobody would like to make friends with me.. But that's okay, I never wanted friends, being alone is the best.

Afer I went to the library and read a book, I experienced a pretty good feeling. Atleast I was cheered up by a book! Oh my, books are better people than normal people. I went back to class, and listened to the teacher for the upcoming lessons. I listened closely if ever we have an assignment, project, or rather a quiz.

A few minutes later, class was done. It's dismissal time, the bell was ringing, and students were carrying their books and their bags along with their friends. Some even were in a large group of people, and they were so happy. Others, were laughing because of stupid jokes their friends make. Sigh, I wish I was like everyone. I'm the only abnormal person here, the only different one. I got downstairs, and in the campus, I sat on a bench underneath the tree.

Let's talk about celestial things. Those were always my interest, they're just really awesome. You see, there's heaven and hell, let's add the purgatory. Heaven is where angels and good people live, it was such a peaceful and happy place there! In hell, it's full of burning flames, demons, and evil spirits. But you would be toyed and just work hard for nothing. In the purgatory, well, it was not so bad there. But you first get to recover back from your deadly sins as missions so you would be trusted and accepted in heaven. Some people even say that, hell doesn't exist anymore because of the purgatory. Why are we talking about this? Because I always wanted to attempt killing myself. But I would still be given a mission so I could go enter heaven. Or rather be a fallen angel, that's nice.

It was sunset and I looked at the skies, the atmosphere was amazing. I think I just felt the presence of the angels from heaven.. Then, I continued just sitting there in the bench, until...

"Uhh, miss..? Can I sit down here?"

When I turned to look in front of me, it was a boy. He was a student from the same school where I am, but he's one year older than me. I slowly nodded and smiled fakely, and moved a little bit on the corner to give the guy some space. I never looked at the boy, and never wanted to make friends with him either. I just continued looking at the sky, and imagined how it would be up there. I also stared at the sun, it sets so gorgeously.
"The sunset is beautiful right?" The boy asked me. I looked at him, and nodded. I could not answer, and my mouth is not in the mood to speak. "Can you please talk?" The boy questioned again, I was pretty annoyed. But I couldn't snob his words, he was a really nice guy, I couldn't act rude and arrogant to him! I took down a deep breath and sighed. "Yeah.." He smiled. "My name is Hikari." The boy introduced himself. "Nice to meet you." He added, and gave me his hand. So Hikari wanna do a hand shake. I took his hand and shook it. "My name is Saria." I introduced myself. But then, I smiled. Wait, I've never been this happy. But atleast I got a friend who's with me, atleast I got a superior. That's good. "Are you also Japanese?" Hikari asked, talking about our nationality. "I'm half." I replied.

"I know you're looking at the sky, because you always wondered that heaven was up there, right? That's okay. Keep your faith, I was the same like you. So just be strong. Because the angels always know when we are desperate, and they're always here to protect us." Hikari explained. "I've heard that you're an introvert and the quiet, shy type, right?" He asked again. "Yes." I said. "Then I understand why you're so quiet. But don't worry, you'll also get used to it. Before I even started talking to you, I've met you before. I always knew you were depressed, and have so many problems in life. And they get worse because of the people around you. They add your troubles, but I'm here to protect you." Hikari said. His voice filled with concern, that's so nice for him to say..
"I'm not thinking of you as a creep for that.. But, why? Are you an angel sent to me, which purpose is to make me feel okay..?" I asked Hikari, I was really wondering. I know some fanciful things are unbelievable, but I can always put my trust on Hikari. "I'm no angel, I'm only human. But, I would be your angel!" Hikari smiled. His smile was so bright, it was a really cheerful one. I'm lucky to meet this guy, he really comforts me and fills my mood up. I smiled back, not FAKELY. I was cheered up, and that's the best thing ever! This is the first time I smiled again.. As me and Hikari smiled at a friendly way to each other, the breeze got harder and the sakura trees were waving. The leaves were flying away as the sun sets, it was actually a good scenario. I've never seen something so beautiful like this..

"Oh, sorry if I have to leave.. My family must be waiting for me.. Bye!" Hikari waved at me, and quickly ran away. Me too, I have to go home now. Atleast I got home happy! That was a nice conversation, nice talking with you, Hikari..

I think I just met an angel.. And at the same time, I felt heaven's presence..