That seems strange.. As days pass by, Hikari's true feelings show off, he was also depressed like me. So it means he started to appear as a cheerful person but sooner, I was learning about the lament he hides in his heart. Just a little more, his heart was gonna turn like mine. I need to save it from being stone, it has to be healed. But I don't know how! Hikari helped me all the way until I was near to the happiness level, and now that he was the desperate one, I can't help him back. It's unfair, I don't wanna show Hikari that I'm the only one who needs help. I don't want him to be alone.. Guess I'll just do everything I can before it's too late.
But I gave him a handkerchief, that helped him stand up when he fell down yesterday. What about, if I give him a presence of music..? Music is helpful too, it's everyone's escape to their problems. The next thing I have to plan, is what song I should sing for Hikari. Or either what song I shall recommend to him that will make him feel alright. Well, does Hikari even like bands? Bands are the most inspirational people when it comes to music. Because other singers don't help that easily, but we'll see! I'll talk about this later, I must go to class now.
When I came to my classroom, I saw that everything was a mess. Some of my classmates were doing bad stuff to my locker, what the hell? I ran to the bullies and pushed them away from my locker, I saw that almost all my things are ruined. They are so rude!! I don't wanna say anything, I'll just wait until something happens.
"Looks who's worried and butthurt about getting her own stuff ruined!" One of the bullies said. I just growled at them, not because I have nothing to say, but because I just wanna stay chill. They left me again, and that's better 'cause they didn't do any bad and insulting gesture.
The teacher saw my ruined stuff and locker, so she told the bullies to the principals about what they did to me. However, the principals said that they will fix my locker soon. That's good to hear, I hope it doesn't get broken again! It will be lame..
Just a normal day of class, we just kept scrolling back through the old discussions and having reviews. I still have good grades, I can always answer in recitations. And the results of my exams and quizzes are getting higher too, if only my parents stayed, they would be happy to see this. Or maybe not, just an emotionless, unsatisfied reaction. How about Hikari? I wonder how he's doing? Is his grades good too? I'm gonna ask him later, but I'll be careful because I don't wanna get to the judging and comparing point.
So in HR time, wait, is it strange for me to see Hikari sitting in the same bench all the time? He must be needy about something, and I need to help. I sat beside him, and started talking;
"Are you okay?"
"Yeah I'm fine. Just need to sit here for a little while all the time to refresh my mind, I don't wanna store too many ideas in my brain. It will damage my thinking process. Talking to you can also work, all the time.." Hikari had been acting like this for days, I should ask him his grades first..
"How's your grades?"
"They're actually fine. I heard that you're getting higher grades, that's good to hear."
I didn't say anything else after he replied, I moved to a different subject. I can't let Hikari suffer in silence like me..
"Hikari.. I know you're suffering in silence, and I can't leave you like that.. I want you to be happy and back to normal again. Please, tell me, is your depression getting worse..?" I slowly spoke. I don't wanna speak quickly, that's kinda rude.
"You don't really have to know. But I'm getting better because of you. Seeing you care for me makes me happy, and I just love it."
Those words touched my heart, making it flutter. I blushed a little, and smiled. "You know, Hikari? That's good. Even you've been experiencing some things, you still know how to save yourself. Just never give up.." I know what I said is not worth, but my goal is to cheer up Hikari, and even myself. "You are the reason why I'm a happy person, Hikari. You're a blessing God has given to me.. Like what you said, I have to say, you're really an angel." I added. Hikari cheered up and gave me a warm hug, I hugged back. Many students were looking at us, but I don't care. This is the true meaning of friendship, it's really a good feeling.
Hikari let go, and went back to his room saying "We'll see shortly in dismissal." I also went back to my classroom, and arranged my stuff including what's in my locker. Hope the bullies don't annoy me again, I'll slap them in the back if they did. After we did a short prayer, I quickly went downstairs and directly entered the library. It's been a long time I haven't visited there, I knew Hikari would find me there.
Instead of grabbing psychology books all over again, I read some other books. It took me 2 hours and a half, but it was calming. Hmm, Hikari never got in.. I wonder why, maybe he was in the bench again? I went outside and looked everywhere, but he's not there either. Strange, where could Hikari go? But I have to find him, I ran into any direction I can find, entered any location I can discover, and climbed every stair I would encounter. But there was no sign of Hikari. I sat on the bench and took a rest, still thinking of Hikari. But I thought of the highest building with the longest stairs of our school, there is a tower in top of there where you can see the view of the city. I ran through the stairs quickly, rushing to find Hikari. When I got to the tower, he was there. Hikari was looking at the skies, glancing at the beauty of the sunset. "Hikari! There you are! I've been everywhere just to search you!" I worriedly said, trying to inhale and exhale fastly. Hikari just looked at me smiling, and approached me. He held my arms tightly and said; "I'm not the only angel here. You're also an angel. But you have lost your strength because of how people treat you, and now that you're so alive. I took you to this place." Hikari moved a little to show me the sky. "I can introduce you heaven here. It's really beautiful and serene, right?" He questioned me. I nodded. We both looked at the skies together and talked about random stuff, I was so happy. Hikari can make me feel the presence of real joy. After a few hours, we headed home.
Hikari's depression shows off, but he knows how to save himself. We can help each other.
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Non-Fiction(#450 IN NONFICTION) A story about a depressed girl named Saria. She started to have family problems, and communicating with people. About her condition, she is always the target of bullying. Saria always felt hopeless, sad, and alone until a boy n...
