His Life Alone .

Day nine . Part one

" What are you thinking Sir Thomas? " Joseph asked me . He was looking at me from a far . But he knows that something is bothering me .

" Is it the time to tell them the truth Joseph? " I asked . I really don't know if its the right time . My doctor told me that i've got few weeks left to live . I don't want to die without fixing my problems with them . I don't want to die with no peace .

" Time na sir , para sabihan mo na sila . Tungkol sa mga sekretong tinatago mo jan sa puso mo . " [ Its already sir , to tell them . About the secrets that you kept it from your heart . ] He says . I nodded and stood to grab my towel .

Joseph isn't any other nurse , he is like my best friend . My brother whom who wants to live healthy and fun while it lasted . Joseph is very nice man . But he shown his true personalities to his close friends , and i'm one of them . I smiled at the thought of it . He never treated me differently yet he never treated me like his patience . I just wonder that would he be here when he only treated me as his patients .

After taking a bath , i easily put my clothes on . A polo shirt , tight blue jeans and black vans . I saw Joseph is still wearing his nurse uniform , i got my few clothes and gave it to him . He just stood there not knowing what to do with the clothes i gave . " Change your clothes , Joseph . " He nodded and i waited for him in the living room .

My days are finally counted . Few weeks left by now . If i never tell Joseph about my problems with my family , i would be at the Philippines . Having relaxing life yet here i am , back at Australia . To fix every problem i had with my friends .

Joseph and i are walking towards the parking area get my car . He was driving and he won't let me drive that easily . He follow the doctor's rules back at the Philippines . I know that i am getting sick day by day . The lung cancer cells gotten into my body and it won't be cured . Seeing every body cried for their love ones is not that easy . I cannot gave what they want , to live longer . I accepted this life and all of the priest told me that Father God is happy for me . I know he is happy that i accepted his planned for me .

I go to church every day when i am at the Philippines . To let Father God know what i can do before i die and he guides me through the problems i have and through the struggles i came through . I know that some people don't believe in God but i do . He let me have this sickness to make my mistakes to make it right .

And i did it .

But here i am , standing in front of a chinese restaurant . Nervously thinking about if I'll tell them or not . Its not that easy to tell when you , i kept it for three years and they just know when i am going to die . I never might forgive myself when they try to blame me when i didn't tell them . Even when i die . I am having doubts on if i can do it or not . " Kaya mo iyan Sir Thomas . " [ You can do it Sir Thomas ] . Joseph encourage me to do it .

He never wanted to see me getting frustrated yet nervously think if i can never do it or not . But no matter what i can do , i need to tell them . I need to let my family know what is my sickness that i kept it from them . I nodded to Joseph whom looking at me with a reassuring smile . We both entered and seated down in one room . The manager knew who i am . I was the person whom his daughter getting obsessed with . Her name was Xhyrine Hoon Lee . She is my classmate since grade school and high school but i never notice her . I was busying playing other girls hearts .