His Life Alone .

Day two . Part two

" Lung cancer Thomas? " These family of Kirstien had a face that i cant figure it out . State of shock maybe . Even for them , im a stranger to them . Knowing me as a friend of Kirstien had cancer , would be impossible to had . I've been pale enough to notice me i had sickness .

" Does your family knew about this? " I shook my head for no . I know what will they ask next . " Are you even a part of their family? "

" They dont treat me like one after my nephew died in my arms . Im just .. no one in the family aside my sister whom take care of me . But , i dont know what she thinks . You know the feeling of , they just being plastic to you . " I said , i look up in the sky before meeting their eyes .

Kirstien's Mom hug me and same goes to her father and the rest . I only wish that my family would be like this . Its like the movie and series of Lilo and Stitch . Ohana means family and family means no body gets left behind . I am a stranger to this family but they treated me the same . No wonder Kirstien is having fun and exciting life with them . They let me into their home and i wander around .

When i step inside in one room , i saw all papers are being putted or stick on the wall . All of the notebooks are been open . I wanted to go inside but i saw a green light on the floor so i stepped back . Is her father a spy or something? When i turn around , its Kirstien's father . Looking at me seriously . I gulped all of the sudden and no wonder that he looks at me a while ago is making me nervous .

" I am a spy , Thomas . But please , dont ever tell to any one . " I quickly nodded my head before he will do something . He enter the room and turn off the switch so i can get in . I saw an old machine and it doesnt work so i tried to fix it . After thirty minutes , im finally done . Its all about to protect the house . I wonder myself of how i know about this stuff .

" You've fixed it , Thomas . Thank you for that . " Mr. Devronne said in british accent . I silently laugh without letting him noticing it . But ended up fail because he looks at me . Oops . That went well but then he join laughing .

Its been weeks that i cant laugh and have so much fun in my life after i knew my sickness . No one ever bother to be with me when i really needed someone . My family doesnt make me feel like this . Its hard to imagine that my own family hated me after that incident . " Hey , Thomas . You okay? You've been zone out . " Mrs. Devronne asked in sudden .

Zoning out is my way of thinking about the possibilities to live . The only reason i live for is my best friend , the girl im in love with . No matter how hard to make her notice me , she choose to ignore me . After i talk to Emman that night , he is pursuing what he really wants . I finally let go of Ette just to make her happy once im gone . Its hard to see her happy and smiling that i am not the reason behind of it . On that moment , i saw her . Still like its fresh wound that wouldnt heal unless i need to heal it .

* Flashback *

Me , Scott , Clairol Joshua , Bryan and the rest of the gang are walking in the hallway . The gang finally enrolled in our school . When i walk towards to my locker , i saw Juliette . Talking to Emmanuel Mendoza , the cousin of Clairol Joshua . He was enrolled here two months ago but i never notice him in my periods .

Ette look at me differently like i did something wrong . I wanted to talk to her but Emman pulled her away from me . I guess , letting Emman to her life is a bit complicated . I know what i have to do : Ignore her . Leave her life alone .

Scott notice some difference in me . I am always in mood for enjoying and fun stuff but lately , i've been saying bad things . Thats what it cause to have this ill . They knew it but they just wont speak at all . Clairol Joshua is been trying me to get out of my shell and yell in the world how i felt . He brought me on the field where me , him and Scott are the only ones here .

" Yell . Shout . Say something . Let your feelings be out . " Clairol Joshua said in commanding voice .

" Or you could tell us about it . We saw your face when Ette ignores you . We pretend we didnt know . Tell us about your feelings . " Scott added .

I look at the sky and catch a glimpse of the bluest sky that i almost wanted to touch when i was a kid . Its like a floating marshmallow or a pillow whom you can stay and watch over people . Scott and Clairol are here to help me . With no doubt that they ever leave me . I sigh and sits on the grass before looking at them . I even scrunch my nose before talking , i hated the heat but heat makes me calm . Thats what the doctor had said and its true to that one .

" Being ignored by your best friend is aching . I felt like im broken into pieces . I just did what its right thing to do and yet , she just ignores me . Leave me there hanging all of the sudden . I know Emmanuel has to do something with this but i never tell him that tell lies to her about me! If only Ette would give me a chance to explain and ask what he told her , but i guess its not . She believed him , thats the problem here .

She believes him . Not her best friend . Maybe she is sick of being with me , the heartbreaker and a player of the campus . I tried to move on with this feeling that she wont love me back . But , i wanted her to be happy before i left her . I dont want her being shattered and moping around when im gone . I want her to live like she always do . Like , im gone . " I explain . Before Scott wanted to say , they all look shock at something at my back . When i turn around , its Ette . Crying . I stood up and tried to came near her but she suddenly ran to me and hug me .

" I am so sorry Thomas . I am truly sorry for believing him . He said that you hated me for not being with you all the time . I even fought that you wont do that to me . Emman said that , you said yes to him to court me . Is that true? Are you leaving or something? Please dont . I cant live without my best friend . " She cried into my shoulders . I look at Scott and Clairol Joshua like , ' i told you so ' look . They just giggled at me . Gays .

" Hey Ette . Yeah , i said yes to him to court you . But that , believing him rather than me . Its hurts but i accepted it . And , one day . I leave you . All . Dont worry , i'll try to come back for you . " I said and trying to say comforting words to make her calm down .

Seeing your best friend cries is the pain in the heart . No matter how you protect her heart , she'll get hurt in no time . It will have many reasons to hurt her but i cant stop thinking that reason will be me when i am gone . When i die any time .