Naruto Fanfiction

chapter 4

chapter 4-Consequences

(3rd p.o.v)

Ryuu sat on top of the building and glanced at the street below him. At about midnight, it was no surprise it was deserted. Ryuu had never had trouble sleeping, well, not since he had stopped having nightmares about his family's death two years ago. 

He couldn't even close his eyes now, though, without seeing the faces of the ninjas he had killed. He hadn't expected the fact that he had taken a life to make him feel sick. It did though. He couldn't stand the thought.

"You can't sleep can you?" Kakashi, Sasuke's team captain and wielder of a Sharingan, questioned appearing behind him.

"No," Ryuu admitted. "I can't get their faces out of my head."

"I see," Kakashi nodded. "Guy told me that you had seemed a bit different when he woke up but given the situation and the details about the fire light, the blood, and the number of corpses, I was more afraid that he meant you had seemed a bit darker. You feel guilt for their deaths don't you?"

"Yes," Ryuu nodded. "How do you get past that?"

"It's different for everyone," Kakashi stated. "I just focus on protecting those I care about. Guy focuses on the fact that they were trying to kill him, making it self defense. Your teacher is somewhere in between myself and Guy."

"That doesn't help me," Ryuu stated. "They weren't after the others and I already tried focusing on the self defense. It stopped working when I got to the ones that were trying to run away when I killed them."

"Are you religious?" Kakashi questioned.

"Yes," Ryuu nodded unsure. "It's hard to witness your entire clan's death without either going insane with thoughts of revenge or becoming religious. Why do you ask?"

"Maybe you feel guilty because part of your religion is that it is a sin to kill," Kakashi stated. "Or because you feel like you sent them to Hell. Perhaps you should try praying, for their forgiveness and your own."

Ryuu blinked in surprise and turned to look at Kakashi but he was already gone.

"He's right," a familiar voice below him spoke.

Ryuu looked down and smiled, seeing Yugao leaning against the wall on a balcony wearing her mask.

"Hello Master," Ryuu smiled.

"You should try praying," Yugao stated. "A lot of people have to. I do."

"You're religious?" Ryuu questioned.

"I am," Yugao nodded jumping up to sit beside him. "I wasn't for a long time. I didn't care about the souls of those I killed, or my own. I didn't start praying until those around me began to die. It's the kind of thing that makes you see how bad death really is. 

Everyone you kill could be just like you. They could have friends, a family, a lover. They may hate killing as much as you do. But in the end, either you kill them, or they will kill you."

"I suppose," Ryuu nodded. "I take it you heard about what happened."

"I did," Yugao nodded. "It's alright that you killed them."

"I didn't kill them all," Ryuu stated. "One got away."

"That's alright," Yugao stated. "The important thing right now is for you to find peace, then find your bed."

He smiled and nodded and Yugao did the same behind her mask.

"Thank you," Ryuu said after a moment. "It helps to have someone that knows how I feel."