Capturing Beauty

Seven

Harry POV

(A/N hello ppl i'm trying something i was never going to do bc i feel like we don't and will never know what's actually going through the boys heads but it's necessary to fully comprehend why Harry doesn't want to be friends with rachel, lol don't get used to it (; )

Ambushing someone and forcing them to listen to you is a stupid attempt for apologizing.

When Rachel and I got stuck in that lift together it felt as if fate was giving us a sign. I thought I finally found someone who I could mess with but could also tell so much to and that terrified me. I never wanted to let her go, I wanted to talk to her forever and I knew there would never be an awkward pause because one of us would just be rambling on and on about something so useless yet incredibly interesting.

But then I lost her. I turned to talk to some reporters and she disappeared on me, regret ran through my veins as I realized I never once heard her name. There was no way for me to find her, so logically I turned to social media in hope that my wonderful fans could assist in my search and by some miracle I clicked on a random username and there was the beautiful girl I spent hours of my day with trapped in a smelly, cramped, metal cage.

I reached out to the one person I felt would never ignore me, but feelings lie right? Because if I was right, Rachel would have followed me back and maybe even replied to the dozens of messages I sent her. Yes, I may have been overly involved when it came to trying to get her to respond but I couldn't give up. I wouldn't.

After a few weeks of being ignored, I realized she wanted nothing to do with me so I left her alone and tried to move on.

I even started dating this model who had the personality of a piece of old bread with spoiled jelly spread on top of some green mold. People told me I was being dumb for dating her but it wasn't like I wanted an emotional thing; it was merely physical, and I was perfectly okay with that. Call me a player or man whore--whatever you want, but I just couldn't let the pain of rejection in. Dating her was my escape from all things Rachel.

Those beautiful large green eyes of hers that make my heart skip a beat everytime she looks at me, the long brown hair falling well past her shoulders, lips so luscious and pink that made not having the allowance to kiss them whenever I wanted so bloody horrendous, and that laugh of hers---oh man, her laugh made me smile every time it escaped her lips.

Rachel was the one you could never forget even if you wanted to.

Storming back from the tunnel where I left Rachel alone, I made my way back to the dressing room hoping she would get not to follow me---but some parts of me wanted her to run after me, not letting me go like I had her. The boys regained their previous positions in front of the tele but immediately turned their gazes towards me as I plopped down on the sofa.

"What was that, Haz?" Liam was the first to break the silence that was tearing me apart. I wanted to tell Rachel we should have started over, but I still wanted to be mad at her and in doing that I had to ignore her attempts at reconciling.

"Do you guys remember when I was stuck in that lift?" All three boys nodded their heads at me expectantly, urging me to continue. "Rachel was the girl."

Their mouths dropped, shock written upon their features until Louis bursted out in laughter. "This isn't something to be laughed about Lou!" I interjected, stopping him immediately. Telling them all the important details that had occurred in the time I've known Rachel, I believed they began to understand why I was doing what I was doing.

"H, I love you I really do," Liam began praising me, "but you are an incredibly stupid person. You are so wrong for cutting her off. She obviously wants to be friends with you, maybe even more, and here you are telling us all the reasons you liked her from the start only to be a dumbass and blow your chances with her. Why would you tell her no and not even give an explanation before leaving?? Goodness, I worry for your future sometimes."