The Beginning of Forever

Chapter 5

*Phil's point of view

If only that's how it really happened. I mean I did tell Dan that I was bi and I did almost tell him I liked him and he didn't hate me. So everything that happened up till the kiss was true. I just imagined the kiss happening. He was still holding me and I'm not sure when I fell asleep but I did and for a while. I felt someone nudge me a little
"Hey Phil. Come on wake up, you need to eat something." I mumbled something along the lines of 'no let me go back to sleep".  I curled further into my strangly comfy pillow. He laughed "I'll let you choose the pizza." Hearing that I slowly got up. I realized I was still on Dan's lap and quickly got off of him "uh sorry." So that was why my pillow was a lot more comfortable. "You could have pushed me off."
"No it's fine. You're not heavy so it didn't bother me." He got up and put his hand out for me to grab it. I hesitated before grabbing it and once I got up our hands stayed connected a beat to long. I looked up and saw him looking at me once again. I pulled my hand quickly away and mumbled sorry. Why does he keep looking at me? I know it's not like he likes me because, well he's straight. I looked at his eyes and they almost seem sad. Maybe he wanted me to hold on to his hand. No Phil what are you thinking he's straight and who would want to hold your hand other then your mom. We went into the living room and I called the pizza place. We call there almost everyday so they know our order by heart. "They said about a half hour till they get here. It sounded pretty busy there."
"Wanna put on a film?" I nodded and went to grabbed Frozen. Even though we've seen this movie about 100 times, it was a quick and simple movie, plus it was the first one on the pile. I sat on the opposite side of the couch because I didn't want things to be weirder between us. I mean I did almost tell him that I liked him.
"Phil?"
"Huh?"
"Why are you sitting on the opposite side of the couch? We always sit next to each other while watching a film." I just shook my head.
"I just... I'm fine over here."
"Ok Phil just because you told me you were bi doesn't mean things have to change between us. We are still best friends and it's not like you like me or anything" I could feel the tears fill my eyes and I got up and ran to my room. I heard Dan call my name but I just ignored him. I can't do this. Dan will hate me if he ever finds out I like him. God why did you have to make me bi and why did you have to make me fall in love with him?