Dear No One [on hold]

January 18 ~ 9am

Oh.

So you aren't trying to avoid me.

Oops. My bad.

I...am speechless.

I really don't know what to say after those letters but, wow.

By the way, it's alright. I accept your apology and all those other 'sorrys'. And yes, those were enough, haha. You didn't need to apologize that much.

I'm not mad at you.

I just thought you were trying to avoid me...and that's all I thought of. I should've thought of other reasons like "oh, maybe he was sick and was not in class..."

Stupid me. Always thinking negatively.

So...uh yeah. Thanks for not avoiding me.

Sorry for overreacting on that. Now I'm embarrassed.

And don't worry we don't have to meet yet if that's what you want. I won't stop sending letters/notes to you. I was hoping you wouldn't either. Yeah, I guess I can kind of agree with your argument about the common phrase, "looks don't matter". But to be honest, I won't really care how you would look like because so far you are the only actual friend I've made in this school and I wouldn't want to lose that.

Like, before this letter-sending thing ever happened, I've only been hanging out with a dog. Yup, an actual living, breathing animal. In this school. It's our guidance counselor's pet dog and for earning community hours, I've volunteered to babysit (or dog-sit) him during lunch hours so...yeah. I've made friends with a dog. His name's Arthur. He's pretty cool. Yeah, this is a little odd and sad but that's kind of exceptional, right? Nothing wrong with that. Because technically, I've heard that animals are better than most people which I kind of agree on. No offense to you.

So, those were some...well, interesting facts about yourself. Although, they don't really expose that much of you personally but that's alright, I guess.

Why don't you ever tell me your name though? Is it that big of a secret?

If it's like a really weird-ass name, I won't judge. I like weird-ass names. They're unique.

Anyway, I think I should pay back the favor and tell you some things about me as well. I never really liked talking about myself though. Usually, I just let the other person talk about theirself more and I just listen to what they have to say and just go with it.

But since you've opened up to me (like, just a little. Not a whole lot) you've made me feel like doing the same. Okay, well, I'll just do it now and list some facts about myself (since you only said some) just for you. And this will be in point form because that was how you did it. So yeah, here goes nothing...

• Okay, well hi there. My name's Mollie. Well, 'Mollie' is a nickname. It's short for 'Molliena'. My actual full name's 'Molliena Boulevardez'. I know, typical spanish name I got there.

• So yup, you guessed it. I'm part Spaniard. Morderme! (bite me).

• I am seventeen. My birthday's on the day before...yeah I wasn't really born before any specific holiday like yours, so I'll just say the date. May 18th. There.

• I...have social anxiety. I can't have an actual normal conversation without me blushing, being really awkward, feeling anxious or even all at the same time. I also do not like public speaking. I don't even talk that much anyway. I mean, it may seem like I do on here but this is just me writing, not speaking. So this doesn't count. I don't know why I have social anxiety. It has been with me through my whole life. I just have it. And I still can't seem to conquer it. I hate it. It had ruined so many good opportunities for me.

• And hey, I like red apples! How dare you. Red apples are the best, not green. They're way too sour.

• I want to travel all around the world and maybe even have a picnic on the Great Wall of China.

• I want to meet Ellen Degeneres just because.

• My all-time favorite movie is Titanic because it makes me cry everytime no matter how many times I watch it.

• I like indie rock music too! (:

• Unlike you, I like when it's night time and the silence. It's peaceful, which I don't really experience much of.

• When I said that I didn't exactly have a home, it was partly true. I got kicked out and now I'm living somewhere else.

• And same. I don't like most people either. But you, I like.

Well, I guess those were some I could say about myself at the moment. Now, I have to go back to doing my stupid classwork before Mr, Nicolleti catches me. By the way, sorry to hear about your two-hour detention for chewing gum in class. That's a stupid thing, I know.

Again, thank you for writing back. That actually meant a lot to me. And thank you for always trying to keep me company. I don't really feel so alone anymore.

Your friend,

Molliena Boulevardez...but just call me 'Mollie'.

P.S. I love the song you suggested. It reminds me of you too. I guess we do somehow collide.

I'm really glad we met through this. (-: