Fandomonium

Panic! On The Grass

Week 11, Day 3:

"Why do you have the word 'fandomonium' doodled all over your notebook?" Jakob asks me.

"Why are you hiding things from me?" I retaliate, crossing my arms. His eyes widen, he's obviously taken aback.

"I'm not, I promise." He raises his hands up in defense.

"Don't bullshit me!" I try not to yell.

"Even if I were, it would be none of your business." I grab his arm as he tries to walk away and swing him so he turns towards me.

"Jakob fucking Frost you listen to me right now," his face is ghost white. "I don't know what's up with you but I'm worried, okay? You're one of my best friends and you've helped me through a lot and I want to do the same for you." I let my voice soften.

"That's just it," He sniffles. "I don't think anyone understands. I have this title to uphold, I need to be happy."

"You don't need to be anything, just Jakob. And we love you." I reach to hug him but he pulls away.

"Where's Hunter? He and I need to talk. I want you to be there, don't let me go crazy, please?"

I walk Jakob over to his dorm and I hold onto his arm. He's shivering and I can't tell if it's because he's cold – due to lack of clothes. Trust me, a tank top is not good in this weather – or because he's nervous. I'm guessing a bit of both. I take Jakob's key and we enter the room.

Hunter has headphones on and he's writing in a leather bound notebook. I don't think he hears us come in. I tap his shoulder lightly and his face immediately brightens. "Hey babe," he kisses my hand and stands up. "Jakob," he nods.

"Hunter," he starts but Hunter cuts him off.

"It's okay, man, I shouldn't have been so pushy. You deserve to have your secrets, everybody does." Hunter kisses the top of my head and immediately my mind stops working. What secrets is he keeping from me? I shake all the negative thoughts from my mind.

"So we cool?" Jakob looks up at Hunter from under his long blonde eyelashes and smiles.

"Of course we're cool, I love you man. No homo though." He quickly adds.

"Duh homo, I am the homo!" Jakob gives Hunter a side hug and then rests his arm on my shoulder. "So about your notebook..."

I'm brought back to the dark reality that I owe him an explanation. "Um it's a quote," I quickly shrug the question off but I know neither of them believe my answer. I roll my eyes. "Everyone deserves to have their secrets." I quote him.

"I hate you," Jakob smiles and playfully punches me. "Hey, I'm going to head to the CanvasFreeze with Phoe, you guys want to join?"

I look at Hunter. "You guys go ahead, I'm just writing."

"You sure..." he nods before I can finish my sentence. I give him a quick hug goodbye and run to main camp with Jakob.

Phoe is sitting on the grass with Amy with a quart of Ben and Jerry's ice cream and we sit next to them. "You know there are benches, right?" Jakob pointed.

"No shit, Sherlock, we're just cool." Amy smirks and Phoenix just shrugs. We sit on the grass with them.

"Tell me something unique about you, Amy." I say.