Johnny Cade x Reader

Chapter 15

"Wake up (Y/N)", Darry lightly shook me awake. "We're going to see Johnny. The doctor said he was awake now," he smiled.

"R-Really?" I rubbed my eyes, yawned, and smiled back. This made me feel really good. A great way to start off the morning knowing Johnny wasn't dead.

I sat up and Ponyboy made breakfast again. This time he tried to make pancakes but his just didn't compare to mine.

"Man, you guys should have tried them. They were awful good," Pony said to Darry and Soda. He was referencing to my pancakes of course.

"You'll have to make them again some time," Soda grinned.

"Well we can't right now because we're already running late to see ol' Johnnycake," Darry said sipping some orange juice.

"Yeah lets get out of here!" I smiled and took Pony's hand. I practically dragged him out of the door.

"We haven't even finished eating!" Ponyboy cried.

"You mean YOU haven't finished eating. Now hurry up so we can go," I smirked.

"'Oh thanks for breakfast Ponyboy' 'oh you're welcome (Y/N)'" Pony mocked with a mouth full of pancakes.

I sighed, "Thank you Ponyboy. For making breakfast I mean."

"You're welcome," he swallowed. "Finished~!!" Pony sung.

"Finally!" I smiled from ear to ear and we all headed out the door to see Johnnycake. I really hoped he was going to be okay.

We finally arrived at the hospital and I just about ran through the door.

"Hey! (Y/N)! Wait for us!" Pony called out, so I stopped and waited so I wasn't being rude.

"Sorry about that. I'm just really excited to see Johnny," I smiled.

"Well don't get too excited, you might have a heart attack or somethin'," Pony joked.

"Yeah yeah," I giggled.

After that we talked to the nurse and se pointed in the direction of Johnny's room.

"Here it goes..."I closed my eyes tightly. Darry went to the door and opened it. Once it was opened I opened my eyes back up to see Johnny face down on the hospital bed. Seeing him like this made me want to break down and cry. I just wanted him to be better already. Since he broke his back he'd probably be in a wheelchair forever. Even if that is the case I'm not leaving his side no matter how much it hurts me.

"Hey Johnny," I smiled holding back tears.

"(Y-Y/N)? I-Is that you?" Johnny choked out and his face lit up.

"Yeah, it's me. How are you? How have you been doing love?" I sat down in a chair and held his hand.

"Well... It r-really h-hurts. Doctor said I'd be in a wheelc-chair f-forever..."

"Oh Johnny... I just want you to know that even if that is the case, I'll always be by your side," I smiled more and choked back more tears. Ponyboy and Sodapop just couldn't take it anymore. They both burst into tears and had to leave the room. Darry followed them to make sure they were okay so I was in the room alone with Johnny.

"W-What's wrong with P-Pony and S-Soda? A-Are they alright?" Johnny asked. It looked like it was really hurting him when he talked. I just wanted to kiss him so badly and tell him everything was going to be alright.

"Y-Yeah... They're fine... Johnny does it hurt for you to talk?"

"Y-Yeah... A little... B-But I like to t-talk to you..." Johnny choked out more words and half smiled.

I was quiet for a little bit and then I asked him what he wanted to talk about. He suggested talking about how the gang and I were and how we were getting along without him there. I told him we weren't doing well because it was hard without him there.

"W-Wow... R-Really? You guys really m-miss me t-that much?" He asked.

"Of course! You hold us all together Johnny," I wanted to cry so badly, but I had to stay strong for Johnny (I guess you could say I had to do it for Johnny [sorry that was a lame joke XD]).

I sighed. It was killing me to see Johnny like this. He didn't deserve this, especially after saving so many lives. He was a hero, and heroes shouldn't go down like this... He had to come out of this.

I kissed Johnny's hand and a single tear fell from my eye. Fucking shit I couldn't take this. I'm not strong enough... This reminded me of when my mother died. Her laying in that hospital bed just like how Johnny was. She had broke her neck in a rock climbing accident. I called her name because I was down below and stuck on a rock. She got distracted and something broke. She fell down and the rope caught her neck, breaking it. She didn't die on sight but she did that night in the hospital bed. I couldn't let Johnny share the same fate.

"I-I'm p-pretty bad off... Aren't I (Y/N)?" Johnny asked in a scratchy voice.

"N-No... No Johnny. You're going to be fine," A few more tears escaped my eyes. I was trying so hard not to burst into tears.

"I c-can't feel below the middle of my back... S-Sometimes it hurts..." Johnny was starting to cry this time. Oh man... I couldn't handle much more of this.

"I p-promise Johnny, everything is going to be alright..." I squeezed his hand tighter.

"(Y/N), you know how I a-always talked about k-killing myself? I don't want to die now... 16 years ain't long e-enough..."

"Oh Johnny!" I broke down completely and so did he.

"I-I-I love you (Y/N). I don't want to leave you... N-Not now and not ever..."

"I love you too Johnny," I said in between sobs. It was too early for him to go now. I really hope he doesn't die.

At this Johnny tried getting up and he completely went unconscious.

"JOHNNY!" I screamed. Darry heard and he came rushing in and so did a nurse.

"What's going on?" Darry asked.

"J-Johnny.. H-He..." I was all teary eyed and wanted to pass out.

"He's fine. Right now isn't the best time to visit him. He's just unconscious. He isn't dead," the nurse said.

"Oh thank god. Come on (Y/N), you don't need to see this," Darry put his hand on my back and lead me out of the room.