There Is No Time In London, Swan

Chapter 17

Before I start this chapter I would just like to say I am SO SO SO sorry that I have not updated... I have been so busy and I am currently trying to get ready to move across the country so things have just been hectic, but I will try to get back on schedule :)

Emma's POV

I drove to Killian's house and Liam answered the door.
"Hey." He said pointing to the couch. I could hear Killian and his dad yelling at the tv. I saw Killian sitting at the end of the couch and I swooped around the end to give him a kiss.
"Hi." I said with a smile
"Hi." He said
"Watchya doin?"
"Watching football."
"Well do you maybe wanna take a break and come out with me?"
"Oh, sure." he said with a smile. I grabbed his hand in mine then I started to push his wheelchair. "Uh, Swan..." He said sweetly
"Yeah?"
"Could I maybe finish watching the game?"
I just rolled my eyes over-dramatically and said "Fine." I gave him another kiss then sat down next to him on the couch.
"So where do you wanna go after this?"
"Um... I don't know. Pirates Of The Caribbean?"
"What?"
"You asked me what my favorite movie is right?"
I just laughed then said "Ok, sweetie, you enjoy your game, I'll go stare at the wall."
"That's nice, Swan..." he didn't even look up.
I walked down the hall and stopped at a photo hanging of Killian in his old jersey from elementary school. He looked so cute and little back then. Puberty hit him like a truck.

Then my thoughts were interrupted by a voice. "You mean a lot to him, you know?"
Liam stood there all tall and intimidating.
"What?"
"He can never shut up about you."
I just blushed a little bit.
"Seriously. I haven't seen him this happy since... it's just been a really long time..."
He suddenly got really close to my face. "Look, my brother is a really great person and he doesn't deserve to be stuck with this crappy disease. But he is. He really loves you and I know he looks tough and all..." it was actually kind of funny cause yeah Killian was tough, but to me sometimes he just looked like a big puppy. "but he can be easily hurt, he has been through a ton of crap and I don't think you realize that you are the only thing holding him together."
I grabbed the collar of his shirt and said "Listen, Killian is the best thing in my life. I really love him okay? He means a lot to me, and I would never hurt him." We just looked around the corner slightly, Killian sat there in his little chair smiling and laughing at the TV.
"Trust me, I could never hurt that." I said staring him right in the eyes.

We walked out into the living room and I said "You, done?"
"Yes, we won!" He said as he gave his dad a high-five.
"That's great, let's go."
"Ok, Swan, let's go, thank you for being patient."
We headed out and hopped into the yellow bug. Killian insisted on driving. Technically he can, but I don't think it's good for him.
"So where do you wanna go?" I asked
"I have a spot I want to show you." He said.
We drove for quite a while and I just kept getting more and more impatient. I couldn't help it, I just wanted to know where we were going.
"Just hang on!" He rolled his eyes.
When we finally got there I said "Now that, was worth the wait."
It was a quite field overlooking the city. The only place in New York where it felt calm.

"This is beautiful." I said sitting on the trunk of the car.
"So are you." He said with a faint smile. I covered my face in embarrassment. He brought them down and pulled my face to his.
Then he broke the kiss by saying "Um, Swan... I want to tell you something..." I suddenly felt a rush of worry go over me.
"What are you ok? Is everything ok?"
"Yes, I'm fine. I just- I just have something I want to tell you." He said holding my hand rather tight.
I positioned myself to face him on his level so I didn't have to look down and he didn't have to look up.
"I really care about you. Like, I don't think you understand how much. You bring me so much happiness... I know I'm not going to be on this planet much longer, I could go next year, I could go next week-"
"Don't say that." Now I was the one squeezing his hand.
"But, regardless how long I have left, I want to be with you for the rest of it. There are only a couple months left of school then we are supposed to graduate and go to college. We haven't really talked about this much but I uh... I just want to be with you for it."
"What are you saying?" I asked.
"I'm saying, I want to follow you, wherever you go. I don't want to waste time learning a profession that I won't ever be able to pursue."
"That's crazy, you have to go to college."
"No I don't and I'm not even sure what I would want to study. All I know is that I want to be with you till the end. We can get an apartment together by your school, I'll get a job, it will be perfect." He pressed his lips to mine but I quickly broke away and said "I can't- I can't have that expectation for commitment."
"Emma, calm down. I'm not proposing, I just can't loose any time with you."
I could almost see tears forming in his eyes. "I just can't loose you."
I pressed my forehead on his laughing a little bit and said "You're crazy, you know that?"
"But it's because I love you." And with that I gave him a kiss. "I love you too."

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Yay, I'm back!!! I completely apologize for how behind I have been, I hope to write more often in the future and I am sincerely sorry that I have not kept it up, but be looking for more chapters soon.