The Moon 2 // bradley simpson

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<> Skylar's P.O.V <>

Milk

Eggs

Butter

Fruit loops

Hershies kisses

Haribo gummy bears

Vitamin water

Elle magazine

Custard cups

2 minute noodles

Mac and cheese

Biscuits

Standing on my toes I reach up to grab the fruit loops off the tall shelf. I just can't reach it and I look down at the ground, positioning my feet up onto the first shelf for the height advantage.

Being short is definitely not a virtue let me tell you that. I grab a hold of the box, jumping down and chucking it in the trolley.

I unfold the crumpled piece of paper from my pocket and let out a sigh, reading over it once again. I'm pretty sure that's everything I was asked to get. I scrunch it up and walk to the checkouts. I throw the wasted piece of paper in the bin as a middle aged lady scans my items.

She's one of those people that just has a permanent scowl on her face, large bags under her eyes and reeks of cigarettes. Well isn't this fun.

"That is $26.70 thank you." She grumbles and I try not to stifle a laugh. I swipe my card and collect up my bags. I haul them to my car, putting them all in the back seat and getting in.

I start up the engine, driving away from the local supermarket that I have learned to love. The hospital is about a ten minute drive from here.

I hear my phone buzz and I quickly glance down at it, the small screen displaying a message from Ella. I can't exactly read it at the moment but I'm guessing its one regarding mine and Lucie's wellbeing.

Alyssa and Ella have been constantly checking up on us over the past year. They even came over to visit about 4 months ago. I really miss them which I guess is natural. To go from living with my best friends for 3 years straight to not for a year is pretty big.

But living with them is not the only thing I miss. I miss going down to the park with the guys and kicking the football around. I miss all seven of us quashed together on the lounge as we watched movies.

I miss everything about being over in Birmingham. There is one thing I miss the most though and that is Bradley. I am quite surprised at the fact that I've lasted a whole year without him. Well, barely.

Ever since I left its like there's been something missing from me. It's the same feeling I had when my Dad passed away. I feel like I don't know what's going on anymore? Like I don't care about anything anymore.

I've lost my motivation to do anything. My mind is set on too many things that I am confused about my feelings, and I can't explain how I feel either. The feeling of emptiness, and feeling that barely anyone is there for me. Feeling that no one understands me anymore. And it seems like there is nothing to look forward to anymore.

I'm not depressed. But I'm not happy. I don't harm myself because the pain in my life is already harming me enough. I feel helpless, like I can't control anything. This whole year I have invested all my time into Lucie that I haven't gotten the chance to move on from Bradley.

She needs me by her side every minute possible. She needs someone to tell her that it will all be okay and that she will get better.

I stare at my hands that are gripping onto the steering wheel. Finally I pull up at the hospital, parking and grabbing the necessary things out of the bags. The chocolate, gummy bears, fruit loops and vitamin water.